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Tuesday, March 03, 2009

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN FEBRUARY 2009


Another difficult month, though with some lovely moments. At least in part, this post of February 7th illustrates this increasing focus on my part on growing:

my fingers grow webs
of flesh between them again
then disappear
a fellow male student says
he's developed webs sometimes

trying to prove
to her that I do grow webs
I hold my hands spread
and wait for them to appear
one small web shows up at last

better maybe
to pursue my education
what will grow, will grow

My favorite post of the month is this one of February 2nd:

a starry winter sky
over the snow hushed forest
I crane my neck up
so I’ll not miss watching
the broken moon’s spinning halves

a lone wolf still clings
to one of the small half moons
as its wobble grows
I understand the science
but it’s the wonder I love

yet I still hope
the teacher understands
that I clearly know
how covalent bonding
and breaking creates it all

[three dream tanka on one dream]

Some interesting background: I decorated a friend's Christmas tree (see photo above) this year and largely with decorations I’d made myself:

a lush wide green lawn
fringed by ancient oaks and elms
the young girl planting
a decorated Christmas pine
under a shadowy palm

a gentle woman
telling her not to over-water
roots relax in earth

And that last line is what I’m wishing for in my life as a whole.

Happy Almost Spring! Especially to all of you still digging out from under in snowy climes.


ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN FEBRUARY 2009


February 1, 2009

joy at the bottom
she’s done my laundry
even my old purple robe



February 2, 2009

a starry winter sky
over the snow hushed forest
I crane my neck up
so I’ll not miss watching
the broken moon’s spinning halves

a lone wolf still clings
to one of the small half moons
as its wobble grows
I understand the science
but it’s the wonder I love

yet I still hope
the teacher understands
that I clearly know
how covalent bonding
and breaking creates it all

[three dream tanka on one dream]



February 3, 2009

she calls to me from
the bottom of the stairwell
tossing cartridges
onto the carpeted steps
she tells me “You can have two”

but can I use these
out-dated correcting strips
doubt turns to gratitude

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



February 4, 2009

she'll run away
on a moment's notice
organized supply shelves

he assumes they'll be
intimate from their first date
booty call schedule

[dreamku on two separate dreams from the same night]



February 5, 2009

rescued from thieves
ancient golden parchment scrolls
wisdom crosses water



February 6, 2009

I put them to sleep
laid out atop each other
then start my escape
but the man on top wakes up
and smiles groggily at me

he’s letting me go
weighting the other man down
so I can flee
I kiss him lightly saying
you’re better than my own dad

[two dream tanka on one dream]



February 7, 2009

my fingers grow webs
of flesh between them again
then disappear
a fellow male student says
he's developed webs sometimes

trying to prove
to her that I do grow webs
I hold my hands spread
and wait for them to appear
one small web shows up at last

better maybe
to pursue my education
what will grow, will grow

[two dream tanka & one dreamku on one dream]



February 8, 2009

found on the sidewalk
unlabeled prescription bottle
lined with loose teeth



February 9, 2009

ALL IN A NIGHT’S WORK
(dream tanka series)


(1) THE PROLOGUE (Dream One)

the three women won’t
let me finish my story
frustration again
even expressing this need
brings me no completion


(2) THE STORY (Dream Two)

her move goes swiftly
from our shared apartment
too fast for me
I try to keep our agreements
and to be prompt as need be

things change rapidly
the large living room echos
emptiness and dust
I miss the old long bookcase
and am surprised by tears

a military man
moves into a corner
making an office
he assumes he’s welcome
and I accept his presence

curiosity piqued
I point to his game CDs
a stacked collection
he clearly expects me
to know just how to play them

frustration rises
what I don’t know, I don’t know
no matter his want
I try to play anyway
the computer screen unclear

the display flips back
to a woman’s poetry
white on black background
I can’t find the right icon
to get back to game playing




February 10, 2009

first time ever
my long-time friend pleads with me
to help her



February 11, 2009

two wizened old goats
wander around the junkyard
last of old “Blue Eyes”*

*nickname for Frank Sinatra; another dream character (a vague female nurse), whom I did not trust, told me these two goats were he.




February 12, 2009


I’m a young strong man
flying sans ship into space
floating through the stars
I don’t try using the maps
I can see in my mind

it’s much like swimming
out here in the vast cool dark
my butt lightly bumps one star
and I switch my focus
intending toward a new goal

[a pair of dream tankas on one dream; on waking I had a strong association to what I've read about The Star card: every person is a star. :-D I think I read that in reference to this Star card directly above in The Thoth Tarot.]


February 13, 2009

a lush wide green lawn
fringed by ancient oaks and elms
the young girl planting
a decorated Christmas pine
under a shadowy palm

a gentle woman
telling her not to over-water
roots relax in earth

[dream tanka and dreamku on one dream]




February 14, 2009

A DAY AT THE BEACH
(dreamku series on one dream)

she takes a long walk
abandoning all her stuff
sunny day at the beach

a sudden panic
why did she leave her wallet
hasty turn around

the shoreline rises
steeply from the surf’s frothy edge
crumbling hand-holds up

she’s been through this
too many times before
ease surprises

the baby she passed
on the way down is still here
her wallet isn’t

she craves perspective
and tries to take to the air
stuck on the ground

a small dark man
stands watch as she tries again
overview at last

“Thank you Deities”
she calls from the churning height --
wish fulfilled



February 15, 2009

we are making love
then come all the complaints that
I use jam glasses
for frequent drinking of water
and leave them all around

I indicate I’ll
not do this ever again
as I try to fly
out across the verdant yard
to turn down the thermostat

[two dream tanka on one dream]



February 16, 2009

he walks ahead as
always and climbs the plank stairs
I can’t catch up



February 17, 2009

the surrogate mom
reneges on the golden couple
he can’t handle it
and deserts his sad partner
who adopts on her own

[dream tanka]



February 18, 2009

of course I have
a sex life, the baby says
I'm twenty-two......months

[Other than a big chuckle at this baby’s joke, this dream sent me scrambling to see what was going on in my life 22 months ago. :-D]



February 19, 2009

tan and trim
her body resculpted
the narrow stairway climb



February 20, 2009

my sad friend and I
sing a duet changing
the last line a little
to end with the word “peace”
and does “magic” come before?

[dream tanka]



February 21, 2009

his new lover lives
on west twenty-second street
artsy neighborhood
she’s concerned about his ex
his blithe assumption: just fine

[dream tanka; That number 22 again! I really must do some more investigating of that. I've already determined what was going on in my life 22 months ago -- as a previous dream indicated might be where to look -- and had some intriguing insights. This dream has also already turned out to be mildly clairvoyant, as an occasional dream of mine is. And of course, there are 22 Major Arcana cards in The Tarot. :-D]



February 22, 2009

white puppies jostle
and line up neatly at last
their surprise salutes



February 23, 2009

hostile striped cat
I rise above its clawing reach
further, further ...



February 24, 2009

the pregnant giraffe
kicks out feebly as she flees
her stride trumps her kick



February 25, 2009

the soles of both pair
too smooth to grip the iced street
my only shoes



February 26, 2009

a toddler girl hovers
as I work on the poster
a large block of text
needs a colorful graphic
I play with fuchsia petals


[dream tanka]



February 27, 2009

over the ocean
elevated airport runways
waterfalls cleanse



February 28, 2009

what seemed wrong with her
turns out not to be the case
on the concrete bench
she makes room for the old man
who spreads out squashing her chest


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN DECEMBER 2008

Shawms, also known as Zurnas (see December 23rd below for details and dreamku)


Sigh. This was a very difficult month. Too many activity and friendship commitments. I can especially see relationship difficulty in many of the below ‘ku and tanka. Some of the earlier dreams/kus came days and even weeks before I was conscious of certain issues they had been trying to bring my attention to. This one below, though, was clear to me as I recalled the dream. I wrote the dreamku only a couple of hours before one friendship finally clearly broke apart:

swimming along
the shallow side of the pool
hitting bottom

“Shallow” puzzled me a little bit, as our friendship has been nothing if not deep. Then it occurred to me it was saying there wasn’t far to go before it all bottomed out, in fact I was already touching it. This bottom, though, does now contain the hope that we may yet remain friends. However right now I’m in a “wait and see” space, as I go through a lot of sadness for us both.




ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN DECEMBER 2008


December 1, 2008

HUMBLED BUMBLER

Jamie Lee Curtis
leads our exercise class
I can't keep up

she hands each of us
a purple jacket to put on
extra long sleeves

I'm anxious to prove
that she's wrong
I bumble the exercises

they crowd me against the wall ... deflation


[dreamku series on one dream; that last line is a one-liner or "monoku," a form even haiku are now being written in sometimes]



December 2, 2008

I cheat with him once
does that make us a couple
he seems to think so



December 3, 2008

a young black woman
stands with the light behind her
in a gauzy gown
I exclaim that her long legs
and curves are so beautiful

[dream tanka]



December 4, 2008

a young woman and I
seduce a perturbed older man
pushing fun icons
I reach for: Reincarnation
of the Tiger*

[dream tanka]

*My immediate association to this was to that famous story "The Lady or the Tiger." LOL!



December 5, 2008

into the open air
to clear our cell connection
the slim waning moon



December 6, 2008

sky flying, no plane
the wind pushes me past home
on the oceanfront
my arms and legs tiring I
struggle to get back on path

[dream tanka]



December 7, 2008

he suddenly dumps
huge piles of books on the floor
of the library
held hostage by his displays
I feel concern for him, too

[dream tanka]



December 8, 2008

tight places
trying to tease strings out of
pockets and tangles



December 9, 2008


the lampshade they painted
with blue and purple glitter
years old birthday gift




December 10, 2008

laid across his lap
“You could play drums
on this sweet tight butt”



December 11, 2008

the house painters
threw out my copious files
the old cartons remain
my shock turns into great ire
how dare they do this to me

she’s not affected
by my mounting rage at their
cavalier treatment
she says that the files were moved
as they needed the space

but how will I get
the files back in their right boxes
they still had no right

[two dream tanka & one dreamku on one dream]



December 12, 2008

the intriguing artist
and I don’t want to talk
a laughing baby



December 13, 2008


I watch the woman shop
and assume each thrift store buy
is for herself
but she hands them all to me
as early Christmas gifts

sizes don’t matter
we agree the orange-scented
cleaner is quite good


[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



December 14, 2008

I enter the bath
all the many lights are on
I turn each one off
the one above the tub’s hard
to get at but I do

what must her husband
have thought when she asked for it
that light by the tub

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



December 15, 2008

invitation to
the new painting-singing class
unprepared teacher



December 16, 2008

dark earth tumbles from
the small hole in the felled tree
what’s emerging

[This dreamku is a good example of how writing dreamku can often lead to some important understanding of the dream. In this case, I initially used the word "log" instead of "felled tree" but not only was the syllable count unsatisfying, I knew it needed more description. When the words "felled tree" occurred I suddenly realized my identification with that tree and the emotional turmoil I've been going through recently.



December 17, 2008

he asks for someone
to be his ballet student
a small fat woman
innocently volunteers
his obvious chagrin

[dream tanka]



December 18, 2008

reviewing reveals
she stole leather slacks from
the foundational dig
a male voice proclaims that
her arrogance tripped her up

[dream tanka]



December 19, 2008

no time off
computer glitches repeat
in my dreams*

*I'm not at home so don't have my dream resources from which to write a new dreamku or tanka, and this is my first time online all day (7:00 pm). Which is by way of explaining why I'm posting a dreamku from April 2006. It's eerily timely now, as I've been noting how much more clearly I'm seeing my daily issues reflected in my dreams. I'm having an increasing problem with my second-hand flat screen monitor, so the subject of this dreamku is even rather applicable.



December 20, 2008

he says from behind
he wishes he’d get it up
yet what do I feel
against my butt answering
my own arousal

a ghost male’s member
rises firmly between us
menage-a-trois*

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]

*Sex dreams are frequently not about sex, or rather not only about sexuality. In this case, this dream is very much about how my own "standing up" for myself is becoming an extremely important issue,



December 21, 2008

voices on the stairs
outside my apartment door
stuffing my wet clothes
in the bathroom wastebasket
to hide them away

I open the door
before my good friend knocks
her “oh” of surprise

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



December 23, 2008

the finger holes on
the dark shawm* are way too big
and too far apart
my small fingers cannot reach
much less cover them to play

on the shawm’s underside
smaller close holes in a row
now I make music

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]

*The zurna is a middle-eastern wind instrument. Also called a shawm, it was played by medieval musicians. I believe it was a shawm I played around with many years ago, and it makes a very sharp loud sound (at least in my newbie hands :-D). In the dream, when I finally got some sound out of it I had to work a bit more to get a middle-eastern sort of belly-dance music sound. At the top of this post is a picture of some zurnas; the darker ones look very much like the one in the dream written about above, except that it was brass.



December 24, 2008

she tells me I should
take all of my clothes off
a loft gathering

his perturbed hello
a man who'd seen me naked
before I backed out

[two dreamku on one dream]



December 25, 2008

the anxious actress
prepares to take a leap
for the movie shot
the dark ground and narrow stream
constructed from brown carpet

clearly she can make
the short leap across the stream
her hesitation
the wall rising straight up
from the stream’s opposite bank

[two dream tanka on one dream]



December 26, 2008

CLOSETED*

the small dark man
makes intense love to me
open door

an old friend
wrongly believes he's dying
I just crave sex

very muddy shoes
my lover says they'll find
and hose me off

I want to be found
but don't want them to know it
large empty closet

*[a dreamku series on one dream from 3/28/08; I don't want to go into all the details, but this dream is proving to have had some clairvoyant elements to it. It also illustrates the problem with clairvoyant dreams -- at least for me. I'm rarely able to identify precognition at the time of the dream. It's only apparent when something from a dream clearly occurs. I suppose this is not truly a problem -- again, for me at least -- as I have nothing invested in "knowing the future." I just find it intriguing that we humans can sometimes do this. Even in my Tarot work I rarely look for future information, but focus on obtaining advice and guidance for my "here and now" issues. Which is precisely what I do with my dream work. Any looking to the future is more like that which we all do when trying to understand the possible consequences to decisions we are pondering.]



December 27, 2008

old workplaces
empty even of sorrow
the past laid to rest*

*[This dreamku was posted previously, on July 16, 2006. I've been yearning for this sort of emptiness recently. Sigh. I also keep recalling an expression I saw on a poster in a psychotherapist's office many, many years ago: The only way out, is through.]



December 28, 2008

what was she
that toddler – a fairy child?
dream recorded too late



December 29, 2008

the souls of dead mice
till the dark earth
what will grow here?*

*[Although written two years ago and posted on May 3, 2006 here, this one has a resonance now for me: the time of year and the changes in my life ... plus those souls of dead mice -- as opposed to living ones -- has always intrigued me. I'm not as spooked by mice as many of my women friends, but I would not say I particularly like them and certainly don't want them in my home space. The mouse souls in this dream, though, are in their more natural habitat and doing something that can support new growth. So the dream/ku has always felt rather positive to me. Much like one of the basic meanings for The Death card in the Tarot: clearing away the old so that the new can grow.]



December 30, 2008

swimming along
the shallow side of the pool
hitting bottom



December 31, 2008

she somehow affords
to visit me cross country
this much missed best friend
someone claims it’s not for me
but to attend a health fair

her acquaintance’s
assumption that she knows all
a swipe I duck under

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]

* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

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Saturday, November 29, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN NOVEMBER 2008



It’s been one of those rather difficult months. I had several emotional meltdowns and have been somatizing a lot. I’ve had more physical malaise in the last two and half months than in the previous two and a half years. Today I’m coping with a ripening head cold. All of which indicates how stressed out I’ve let myself become. As I read through this month’s dreamku I was struck that the posts for November 23 and November 20 may have some wisdom to offer me. They are from two dreams (possibly one, I’m not sure) from one night. Although I initially posted them out of date order, they were definitely dreamed in the order immediately below:

(posted November 23, 2008)

he drives us off a cliff
into a ripe cornfield that’s
a full story tall
we fall slowly and land
safely amidst the green stalks

he wants to drive straight
ahead immediately
sure that he knows best
I want to check out options
to the right? to the left?


(posted November 20, 2008)

I stand in a field
of fully ripe golden grain
soft earth vibrations
starting around me grain stalks
bend gracefully to the ground

a crop circle grows
spiraling out through the field
awe in the morning

That November 20th posting was such a wonderful dream experience. I was at the center of glorious mystery. On reading the November 23rd tanka pair in which there’s a fall and then disagreement on how to proceed, I extract this advice from the subsequent November 20th dream’s images: stay centered in the mystery of life as it circles around you. I’m also inclined to interpret the first two tanka as representing left brain -- thinking, linear, either/or responses to life, and the November 20th post to right brain -- intuiting, spiraling, not either/or but both and more experience. I’ve wandered way too often from my more natural tendency to right brain experience over the past couple of months and am endlessly grateful for the November 20th dream post’s awesome reminder to come home far more frequently. Nay, to recognize that I am always at home.



ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN NOVEMBER 2008

November 1, 2008

the glowing globe falls
in the water off dockside
terrifying everyone
this is a world invasion
we prepare to sail off

I start screwing
one of the four corner poles
into a boat’s deck
but find that it’s way too tall
hitting the dock over-hang

back on solid ground
I say, yes, my family
are mobsters all
but they are still my family
and my ties to them alive

gossip starts to spread
about my relatives:
willing collaborators

[three dream tanka & one dreamku, on one dream]



November 2, 2008

the closing comment
“all the guards are gone”
should I be worried?



November 3, 2008

the bus/elevator
makes a stop but it’s not
the last or even right
one for us all, it’s just
another along the way

[dream tanka]



November 4, 2008

all stores I was wont
to buy binge food in are closed
huge sighs of relief



November 5, 2008

I click on the icon
and a small vague ghost rises
she tells me to guess
what she has to offer me
her black and white stripes wavering

I have no trouble
stating what this young genie
has bottled for me
when she quietly questions:
but what do I need of you

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 6, 2008

I do not welcome
his sexual advances
in the empty lobby
later he proudly gossips
that he’d laid hands on me

[dream tanka]



November 7, 2008

she arrogantly says
(as if none of us noticed)
that the office is closed
as always I ignore her:
this time bomb in denial

[dream tanka]



November 8, 2008

[see photo at top of post]

surprise greeting
a grinning tiger's whiskers
tickle my face

[The Siberian Tiger (and by extension all tigers) is one of my power animals; Horse is the other. So when a tiger or horse shows up in a dream it has special significance to me. In this case, Tiger was waking me unusually gently to the need to be really focused in the immediate moment. There’s also something in this dream image about a need to be more assertive; I felt that the tiger’s expression softened a more usual association of aggression into assertion.]



November 9, 2008

I'm disappointed
when he makes a quick attempt
to kiss her not me
as the subway train doors close
he blows her another kiss

[dream tanka]



November 10, 2008

he’s younger than I
and we’d not met up in years
convenient marriage
I decide it might work out
as he was married before

[dream tanka]



November 11, 2008

his worry showing
my lover watches as I
enjoy the rock group
the sad refrain they sing:
I’ll always land on darker ground

[dream tanka]



November 12, 2008

my uncle reams out
my clearly downcast father
as I defend him
my uncle turns on me
with his vituperation

I have problems but
that doesn’t mean I’m worthless:
my forceful response

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



November 13, 2008

in the days she stands
on the long police line-up
her pregnancy swells
she’s there to contain the thugs
not to be booked for a crime

[dream tanka]



November 14, 2008

the star presses him
against the wall with her full-
term pregnant belly
his fear and trembling fades as
she tells him he’s the father

[dream tanka]



November 15, 2008

young Clark Kent drives me
to a well-known necking spot
asking if it’s OK
I assent and feel only
brief concern for my safety

on the way to neck
we clean a gunky glass disk
joy at getting clear

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



November 16, 2008

the spacious ranch home
is owned by a mobster
a funeral’s faked
to draw a hit man’s focus
off the mobster family

[dream tanka]



November 17, 2008

my old haunted home
I tell guests to just intend
and a ghost will come



November 18, 2008

the beauty pageant begins
both men and women entrants
parade one by one
each waiting in the spotlight for
their gorgeous female escort

the last three entrants
wait side-by-side for escorts
an announcer says
each of the 50 contestants
stands for a different state

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 19, 2008

I don’t see the cliff
as I park my motorcycle
scramble from the edge



November 20, 2008

I stand in a field
of fully ripe golden grain
soft earth vibrations
starting around me grain stalks
bend gracefully to the ground

a crop circle grows
spiraling out through the field
awe in the morning

[dream tanka and dreamku on one dream]



November 21, 2008

AN ANCIENT GOD RISING**

she won't let me go
til I give what I owe her
paid receipt ignored

captive overnight
I can't find any toothpaste
women observe

I cling to outrage
at being held hostage
where's my purse

how's your daughter
I ask my captor
she doesn't let go

a nice white-haired man
dozens of plane flight brochures
but none for my home

my admiration
his encyclopedia
of esoteric wisdom

altered state
The Fool* pushes a pharoah
into a grave

downed after struggle
the pharoah
in viscous liquid

a God of Babylon
rises from grey-aqua muck
huge genitals pend

[*The Fool, a combination of the one in the Tarot and the sort of fool Kings had in their courts.]
[**Dreamku series on one dream from September 2007 -- when I had this dream it precipitated research into Gods of Babylon; given I'm finding this dream intriguing again I should probably read up once more on the God this dream seemed to refer to (I think I recall somehow determining it was Ea). :-D]



November 23, 2008

he drives us off a cliff
into a ripe cornfield that’s
a full story tall
we fall slowly and land
safely amidst the green stalks

he wants to drive straight
ahead immediately
sure that he knows best
I want to check out options
to the right? to the left?

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 24, 2008

I take raw chopped beef
from the stove top frying pan
cook, and savor it
an older man tells a younger
to roll the rest paper thin

they question if I
have taken any beef or not
why don’t they see?

[one dream tanka & a dreamku on one dream]



November 25, 2008

there’s a ghost in the
room behind, right now, a man
a minute man



November 26, 2008

we both dream of gays
mine fill a large store window
giving sexy massages



November 27, 2008

his stare concerns me
as I climb down from the tree
determination prevails
I retrieve my crumpled words
by the muddy lotus pond

[dream tanka]



November 28, 2008

repeat frustration
images I can’t connect
though I know they do



November 29, 2008

we quietly whisk
the toddler girl away
sex in public



November 30, 2008

at the co-worker
cookout on the large green lawn
I apologize
that my wide butt’s in his way
he says he rather likes it

[dream tanka]

* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

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Friday, October 31, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN OCTOBER 2008



I love the above graphic. I fancy this is what I’m really like, at heart, in my room working on these dreamku and posts. Especially this time of year. :-) There’s even a series with a black cat in it below. And these samples from the month are rather Halloween-ish, too:


his grin intrudes
on the disturbing dream
demon-man with horns

* * * *

OF SNAKES AND DINOSAURS

I try to prevent
any snakes from escaping
blocking every little hole
tiny snakes keep slipping out
and I keep putting them back

little T-Rex’s*
move on to this dark wood floor
as snake predators
they quell any sneak escapes
from the end where they gather

if all flesh burned off
leaving only T-Rex bones
they’d be identical
living skeletons pacing
this silent but busy night

* * * *

But more seriously, I wish all of you a Blessed Samhain and Happy New Year (in the ancient celtic tradition, All Hallow’s Eve is New Year’s).



ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN OCTOBER 2008

October 1, 2008

NO LEG TO STAND ON

The small van for the handicapped arrives. A man with no legs below his knees is sitting in the front passenger seat. An indolent Brad Pitt sprawls behind the driver’s side.

I squeeze in the back
awkward and uncertain
my forced good cheer


Brad Pitt promptly falls asleep. It’s a quick silent ride to the airport. When the van pulls to a stop he wakes, his brow angrily furrowed.

still anxious to please
I say “good morning bluebird”
his grouchy exit


The man with no legs below his knees waits for his wheelchair, his shoulder length hair moving in the light breeze.

without assistance
he slides surely from the van
deeply quiet strength

[a dream haibun]




October 2, 2008

lonely relief
I storm out of the diner
deserting my friends



October 3, 2008

“Thank you for coming,”
she herds me out of her house
where are my shoes?
a mouse-bug skitters quickly
through the deep shadows




October 4, 2008

I get in the lift
and pull on a long flared skirt
a woman crawls under
and looks at my small brown boots
"You'll wear these, also?"



October 5, 2008

she can’t get her car
to start going straight forward
empty nighttime street
he makes a small adjustment
and leaves her alone again

the motor grinds slowly
as she handles the gear shift
is it stuck in reverse

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



October 6, 2008

the pizza parlor
needs financial support
I can’t buy a slice



October 7, 2008

the mother’s dying
will free me of baby care
I rush to throw out
a long tray of diapers
but a new infant is born

my work goes on
I keep all the diapers
while craving freedom

[dream tanka and dreamku on one dream]



October 8, 2008

I rub my dear friend’s
ready-to-pop pregnant belly
around and around
I reassure the baby
it will soon understand speech

[dream tanka]



October 9, 2008

he struggles to pilot
our vehicle up the tight
spiraling staircase
I realize how to help
and start pulling on the walls

[dream tanka]



October 10, 2008

we store unused things
in an empty cubicle
next to a packed one
much stuff stored in the full one
looks all too familiar

a male friend points to
a crate that might hold the corpse
we call the police

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



October 11, 2008

I tell her and her child
I’ll meet them a bit later
as I stay behind
I search for one of the shoes
I want to wear to go out

I find many shoes
I’d forgotten all piled up
none seem fitting

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



October 12, 2008

there’s a hip new club
in town for which I’m asked
to produce a show
are my friends and I chi-chi
enough for their clientele

[dream tanka]



October 13, 2008

I’m starting an affair
that’s somewhat scandalous
a nine year old boy’s
lover is a grown woman
my heart aches but I don’t judge

[dream tanka]



October 14, 2008

men and women dive
into the large deep lake
I, in my easy chair
that to my great surprise floats
into a rushing river

now out of the chair
I fight to swim the river
along with all the others
and accept help from a man

we all manage to
meet in the rocking shallows
white water curls

[two dream tanka & one dreamku on one dream]



October 15, 2008

the woman accused
of child abuse is surprised
I haven’t judged her
its those entrenched in power,
I say, who I find abusive

not knowing her I
choose to stay open minded
fame’s no proof of guilt

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



October 16, 2008

the director films
upper and lower class folk
my unease with both



October 17, 2008

his grin intrudes
on the disturbing dream
demon-man with horns



October 18, 2008

office of cubicles
I rummage through desks naked
no toilet paper



October 19, 2008

small movements in my
unlocked suitcase prove to be
my groggy black cat
when I wasn’t looking she’d
snuck in and been packed away

I want the rich man’s
romantic attention, too,
though I have the chef’s
who clears a space to revive
my still rather weak black cat

flat out on her back
she begins to breathe strongly
her name’s still Chaos

[two dream tanka & one dreamku on one dream; I actually had a mostly black cat named Chaos many years ago. :-D]



October 20, 2008

her son’s too grown now
to carry, nearly her height
I’ve missed them both



October 21, 2008

from outside the tub
he softly touches my bare
soapy breasts and thighs
do you really intend to
pursue sex with me, I ask

[dream tanka]



October 22, 2008

on the empty walk
to her small attached white house
I face the front door
self-conscious sobs escape
from between my cupped hands

[dream tanka]



October 23, 2008

her apartment’s not
where I recall it being –
lost far uptown



October 24, 2008

he returns all the
pennies she gifted him with
what nerve!



October 25, 2008

everyone heads home
as I hike toward the beach
children in wheelchairs



October 26, 2008

OF SNAKES AND DINOSAURS

I try to prevent
any snakes from escaping
blocking every little hole
tiny snakes keep slipping out
and I keep putting them back

little T-Rex’s*
move on to this dark wood floor
as snake predators
they quell any sneak escapes
from the end where they gather

if all flesh burned off
leaving only T-Rex bones
they’d be identical
living skeletons pacing
this silent but busy night

*Tyrannosaurus Rex, that I saw and thought of as T-Rex in the dream

[three dream tanka on one dream]



October 27, 2008

the waitress shows me
what we need to sort and wash
kitchen night shift

she runs out the door
saying over her shoulder
to meet up with her
at parking lot seventeen*
as she moves out of my sight

I don’t know that lot
and rush to get her in view
taking graceful leaps
I’m surprised I can do so,
as a man smiles approval

the path’s frozen now
though I keep a fair purchase
I decide to fly
and raise my arms, pumping them,
lifting slowly through the night

*association in the dream and on waking to the The Star card in the Tarot who’s numbered 17

[a dreamku and three dream tanka on one dream]



October 28, 2008

will I ever have
his true affection?
this brother/lover



October 29, 2008

the cleaners lose
her fancy, ill-fitting vests
poor compensation



October 30, 2008

THE SENTIENT TREES
(dreamed 3/16/06)

The sentient trees long violet and pale green branches toss. I tell my friend this is my favorite time of day as the branches flicker like strippers' boas in the sky, turning into lightning fast whippers:

dominating
the darkling sky
armed trees

[a dream haibun: Technically I'd coin the name for it of dream scifaibun, as the dream has a science fiction aspect. I have lots of new dreams on which I want to write some dreamku and tanka, but just have not had time. That's why I'm posting this old piece. What I find amazing is I can still see that sky and those trees in full color in my mind.]




October 31, 2008

tumbling from the sky
with a charred underside
the moon or UFO?


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

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Thursday, October 02, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2008

[This image goes with the verse for September 11 below]


The first thing I noticed on reading through the dreamku below was the colors, especially green. I don’t often dream in color so this is note worthy. My guess? Mostly to do with joy, passion and growth.

The below pair of dream tanka from one dream of September 3rd had me belly laughing as I woke up:

WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM MY FRIENDS

a cat crawls quickly
into my white underpants
holding on tightly
I waddle calling to friends
for help with extricating it

my friends follow me
to sliding doors where I tell
the men to stay put
inside a woman begins
to scoop the cat out

Hope you enjoy this month’s dreamku. Many of the tanka, I must confess, are a few weeks old as I’ve not been recalling my dreams as readily as usual.

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2008

September 1, 2008

incredibly long
golden green titles waver
I stumble over
blurred numbers and gaelic words
she appears to know them all

[dream tanka]



September 2, 2008

through my grandma’s house
a lush parade of
Amer-Indian tribes



September 3, 2008

WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM MY FRIENDS

a cat crawls quickly
into my white underpants
holding on tightly
I waddle calling to friends
for help with extricating it

my friends follow me
to sliding doors where I tell
the men to stay put
inside a woman begins
to scoop the cat out

[two dream tanka on one dream]



September 4, 2008

I stash a dust filled
green towel in the freezer
he opens its door
brushing past his warm shoulder
I snatch the towel away

[dream tanka]



September 5, 2008

I seek my new beau
two strange women disapprove
of my green jacket



September 6, 2008

the photo appears
a dozen times on the page
each one needs a verse,
written first: Give the Lender
the Power to Receive

[dream tanka]



September 7, 2008

I balance and roll
on the red exercise ball
visitors watch amused
or are they impressed I’m such
a flexible old lady

[dream tanka]



September 8, 2008

crazed and crumbling
the small cactus in
its little rock nook



September 9, 2008

I visit my friend
in our former apartment
she doesn’t miss me
the only difference now
no piles of dishes to do

[dream tanka]



September 10, 2008

a tall man in drag,
another young man, and I
share a dressing room
the tall man doesn’t like me
and hits me with the show’s script

[dream tanka]



September 11, 2008

the large dark workhorse
puts his muzzle on my mouth
looking into my eyes
I’m not certain what this means
but figure he must like me

more intense nuzzling
I mount and take delight in
his strong smooth gallop

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]
This was posted with the image at the top of this post of a Clydesdale stallion, much like the one in my dream; though mine had no white and wasn't all "gussied up." :-)



September 12, 2008

a wall of paintings
draws me back to muse on two
shining Goddesses:
Demeter the Earth Mother,
Harodata* the Sacred Whore

[dream tanka]

*my dream world tossed up this name (it was accented on the second syllable in my dreaming mind); I googled it and found one occurrence in an untranslated sanskrit text. Hm!



September 13, 2008

the retro drive-in
screens old Frank Sinatra flicks
kids have never seen
his early career, that fills
a black and white mandala

[dream tanka]



September 14, 2008

she can’t sweep away
the dark egg shaped rocks
crumbling back porch



September 15, 2008

he bloodies himself
crashing deliberately
into wall after wall
yelling from his loneliness
I can't do this anymore

[dream tanka]



September 16, 2008

I hear the panic
as she calls out in her sleep
curtained bed alcove



September 17, 2008

a small black cat
runs around the large theatre
surprised laughter spreads



September 18, 2008

she catches her toddler
as he runs into the street
she lets me hold him



September 19, 2008

walking home at night
I hurry the last few steps
I am shocked to note
home's not there and I can't recall
the past twenty minutes.

[dream tanka]



September 20, 2008

through a phase shift
I see myself leave and return
lookin’ good!*

*This is an especially interesting dream given I've lost a lot of weight and am still losing. Our mental images tend to lag months behind the reality. This dream seems to, at least in part, show a re-adjustment of my mental image of myself. :-D


September 21, 2008

this bridge across new
waters needs to be prepared
to hold its pathway
taking turns we gently roll
strong adhesive along it

[dream tanka]



September 22, 2008

I skim all his words
they compare quite well with mine
song lyric sheets



September 23, 2008

I arrive to sit
for his child while he's dating
but he's hired a man
then he gives me green candy
which I politely turn down

sweets are bad for me
I explain virtuously --
the piece in my mouth

[dream tanka and dreamku on one dream]



September 24, 2008

they move into their
new home at a road’s long end
surrounded by woods
the seller had not disclosed
its distance from the familiar

[dream tanka]



September 25, 2008

living room fun time
he asks if we’ve found his piece
of red silk yet



September 26, 2008

first the infant falls
freezing in place at pool side
then we each tumble
no harm, no foul, this first scene
of a shining new circuit

[dream tanka]




September 27, 2008

she walks on water
then suddenly plummets down
at last she rises
“He doesn’t build out this way
anymore,” my friend giggles

[dream tanka]



September 28, 2008

she proclaims my left
dimple is larger than my right
I smile wider



September 29, 2008

dream recall lost
beneath your long body’s heat
heart’s ease



September 30, 2008

the angry woman
and the gentle lady dance
tender partnership


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





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Monday, June 30, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN JUNE 2008


Phew! What a month. The ups and downs have been enough to put me off even thinking about ever going on a roller coaster again (not that I would have before this month...:-D). I can’t really choose a favorite out of this batch, though I do sort of like this one, from June 12:

he sweats over singing
the old ballad properly
boxer outside the ring


I chuckled on remembering the dream. I’ve started singing in the chorus here and it’s raised a slew of old family issues for me (my father was a professional singer, and his parents sang in Vaudeville, etc.). But I’ve been very determined not only to give it a really good shot, but to enjoy it.

Ultimately, I think the following dream tanka from June 6 draws me most. If nothing else this month I was nudged again and again to see how truly mysterious life is at core and to be nourished by that:

THE LONG WALK

A very long walk
through brick halls to the kitchen
following their leads.
At the center her husband
cups mystery in his palm.



ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN JUNE 2008



June 1, 2008

a son plays poker
to engage his distant father
old back alley game



June 2, 2008

she thanks Johnny Depp
for the strawberry ice cream
so many dark seeds



June 3, 2008

embrace from behind
a lively blond woman
only vaguely recalled



June 4, 2008

he tries to cut
my little yellow purse strap
subway encounter



June 5, 2008

DANCING WITH A STAR
(experimental dream tanka pair from one dream)

The rich star and I
dance together for a while.
She is deeply moved
when I say: Do not let your
bright fire burn you out.

As we catch our breaths,
she pulls out her pen and asks:
How can I help you?
Afraid she’ll feel used again
I can’t think of anything.



June 6, 2008

THE LONG WALK
(dream tanka)

A very long walk
through brick halls to the kitchen
following their leads.
At the center her husband
cups mystery in his palm.



June 7, 2008

UPLIFTING
(dream tanka)

the floor of the lift
dissolves from under my feet
softly suddenly
at the bottom of the cliff
I grasp for hand holds back up



June 8, 2008

joyful desert hike
I move my new backup disks
to deeper cover



June 9, 2008

distant view
that dark haired Don Juan hurries
to help the new maid



June 10, 2008

getting ready
no need to thaw the soup,
tomorrow’s Thanksgiving



June 11, 2008

tryst in the dark
she, a liberated woman
or he, the seducer



June 12, 2008

he sweats over singing
the old ballad properly
boxer outside the ring



June 13, 2008

WISE WOMAN*

The car is crowded
with a family’s seven kids.
One teenage daughter
gives birth during the long ride,
she is now considered wise.

*"Wise woman" is a positive term for crone or elder. Although not specifically referenced as such in the dream, it was my immediate association on waking and therefore has relevance to the dream. On googling it I came across the Native American Hopi Indian statement "When the Grandmothers speak the earth will be healed."



June 14, 2008

WE EACH TRY
(dreamku & tanka pair from same dream)

we each try on
various sized mailing tubes
orderly chaos

I put her in a
long mailing tube to help her
it’s quite difficult
to fit down the curved sink drain
I let her breathe, then try again



June 15, 2008

she wants me I him he her no exit*

* "No Exit" is the title of an old movie in which just this scenario is a metaphor for Hell. The dream did not feel "hellish," I was only vaguely disappointed during it. However, I frequently do not feel the deep underlying emotions of a dream until I wake and work with it. On writing out this dream and recognizing its "no exit" triangle I did have much deeper feeling than vague disappointment.



June 16, 2008

baseball size droppings
thud all around
birds perch high above



June 17, 2008

children in the surf
my two empty satchels
under the moonlight



June 18, 2008

a young boy shows us
how to work the locked door
starlit beach



June 19, 2008

first day on the job
lost in the large office
I wash my hair instead



June 20, 2008

the dark-haired beauty
aces the entrance exam
pedicurist school



June 21, 2008

WHERE IN THE WORLD
(dreamku pair from one dream)

flying to Barbados
north of Africa, I say
she overshoots twice

rooftop discotheque
checking door after door
for Barbados



June 22, 2008

he kisses each eye
but doesn’t get to my mouth
a sick woman needs help



June 23, 2008

CYCLES
(dreamku pair from one dream)

a large plaque of white
uncooked pastry dough
her motorcycle logo

transparent around
and open at the front
my motorcycle shield



June 24, 2008

he rolls end-over-end
in his rose-colored carton
life on the streets



Jun 25, 2008

SUBWAY*

I rush again down
subway stairs to a station
this time strange men pace
in the dusty dark corners
dare I ask one to help me

dropped conversation
an old male friend turns to ask
if I want a token

where am I where is there to go subway

*A dream tanka, a regular dreamku, and a one-line dreamku, written about the same dream.



June 26, 2008

one way only
the relaxing train ride
up the rocky coast



June 27, 2008

LOSS

she lost a child
he, his mentor and friend
they keep their own counsels

he softly asks
where she’ll send her writing now
she answers, Cleveland



June 28, 2008

IF ONLY

grief tears out of me
before the plate glass window
bitter relief

grief’s turbulent wake
if only she’d lived and he’d
not been abusive



June 29, 2008

he dictates a note
about a dying tenant
slumlord doctor



June 30, 2008

MOVEMENT*

the bright light
of the popular movement
seductive young man

crowded boulevard
he tells us to spread out
and form a circle

too many seekers
a man mashed up against me
from behind

I step away from
the entranced circling group
the masher runs off

he stuffs something
in the trunk of his waiting car
my grey coat is gone

old convertible
I describe its long lines
to the police

the loose green fringe
of a borrowed shawl
safety pin repair


*A dream from June 28, 2008, in seven dreamku.


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,





**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

DREAM HAIGA: Response to One Single Impression Prompt of 5/18/08



The prompt this week at ONE SINGLE IMPRESSION is "bleeding." My response is a dreamku, a haiku-like form based on dreams that I've been developing for a while now.

Please visit One Single Impression to enjoy the variety of responses their prompts always generate.

P.S. Several hours after making the above post: I went to the library on the grounds of the retirement community I live in, hoping to find poetry that is outside my usual "poetry comfort zone." The first book I picked up is one of English and American Sonnets (sonnets are waaaaay outside my comfort zone :-D). When I opened it, I felt compelled to read this first sonnet that caught my eye, by Archibald Lampman:

THE LARGEST LIFE

Nay, never once to feel we are alone,
While the great human heart around us lies:
To make the smile on other lips our own,
To live upon the light in others' eyes:
To breathe without a doubt the limpid air
Of that most perfect love that knows no pain:
To say -- I love you -- only, and not care
Whether the love come back to us again,
Divinest self-forgetfulness, at first
A task, then a tonic, then a need;
To greet with open hands the best and worst,
And only for another's wound to bleed:
This is to see the beauty that God meant,
Wrapped round with life, ineffably content.

This sonnet addresses the query my unconscious mind was making in the dream/ku above. Even also using, ultimately, an image of blood. Synchronicity always amazes me, no matter how often it graces my life.

* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,

Roswila

[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems.

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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN MARCH 2008



Since I’ve finally started the dreamku Yahoo group (DREAMJIN) that I’ve been threatening to, I’ve been even more focused on dreamku than usual. I’m learning from my fellow group members' work and from their comments, and enjoying it immensely. It all leads me to look at these ‘ku below with somewhat newer eyes. This is, hopefully, all to the good. But I then wonder what I can say about them without going on, ad nauseum. :-D Well, I can say my favorite is this one (actually the ending one of a series, but it can stand alone):

they snub the poor crone
she stands tall at my urging
scarred thin beautiful

I feel something in myself stand tall with that crone when I read it. May we all receive and offer encouragement when it is needed.

Image above: My Taiga Tarot design for the Six of Swords, based on the same dream that produced the ending pair of dreamku for this month (March 31).


ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN MARCH 2008



March 1, 2008

fellow traveler
and welcome friend in my dream
reformed abuser



March 2, 2008

he flirts upside down
and clutches at his chest
nothing untoward



March 3, 2008

barefoot waitress
she finds her flip-flops
by her lover in the diner



March 4, 2008

its painted rump flakes
the black and white horse
is a strawberry roan



March 5, 2008

SNEEZING AT AN ELEPHANT

high building terrace
safety pinning my blouse front
we fall off again

long free-fall
I guide the desk we cling to
away from concrete

safe landing
she doesn't want to lend me
more safety pins



March 6, 2008

prideful mother
her baby’s white blonde hair
has very dark roots



March 7, 2008

office exchange
he says we have mail problems
I say hire females



March 8, 2008

he builds spiraling
chimes for me to play
a new scale to learn



March 9, 2008

I like him, but live with him? John McCain*

[*the actual presumed USA Republican presidential candidate; BTW haiku are sometimes written in one line, as are dreamku]



March 10, 2008

WHAT SHE WANTS

energized room
her large family waits
to hear her poetry

she sits before them
mumbling and looking down
puzzled listeners

risky business
I whisper "speak out and
hold your head high"

she sits silently,
safe for once in their regard
true desire



March 11, 2008

DEED, OR DOER

the mobster
leaps around from bed to bed
immoral acts

the Cardinal
rings the room from bed to bed
religious lessons

the shape shifter
falls for the Cardinal
no real surprise



March 12, 2008

she fools herself
that she fits his parameters
easy way out



March 13, 2008

the walls keep being moved around dry...wet...dry

[Both haiku and dreamku are occasionally written in one line of approximately 10 or 11 syllables, and retaining the usual "kireji" (break).]



March 14, 2008

MEGAPHOR

though drawn to him
she rejects his advances
her friend's dark lover

to flee she changes
into a Goddess statue
broken open

tsunami's wake
we must wear sunscreen
in the hot spots

she embraces
his love at last
holocaust alliance

[The first dreamku in the series above was actually dreamed the night before the next three. As I recorded the last three I saw the first and knew it was the beginning.]



March 15, 2008

WHAT A LONG STRANGE TRIP....

missed train
a steward leads us in cars
to a downtown stop

the only one
not left behind in the rush
my strange vehicle

packed train
seated by me he flings his
head and arms around

the past
from which he dangles
abusive childhood



March 16, 2008

a house unfolds from
the broken little car
road trip with Dad



March 17, 2008

coulda lived better
coulda lived a whole lot worse
life is in the “is”

[I was chanting these lines in a dream. After some discussion on DREAMJIN as to whether this is truly a dreamku, I have decided it is more appropriately called a little poem. Though there are those who might even disagree with this as it really is more an aphorism. In any case, it teaches too clearly and evokes too little to be a dreamku. Funny thing is, as I have sat more with the memory of the dream I think I was actually trying to write a song in that dream. :-D]



March 18, 2008

A NIGHT OUT

I walk directly
through the gathering of snobs
gossip rolls off

a fat spy woman
runs when I shoot at her feet
rich part of town

they snub the poor crone
she stands tall at my urging
scarred thin beautiful



March 19, 2008

he demands I use
greater magic than I know
comic book hero



March 20, 2008

Brad Pitt and I
yearn toward each other
full auditorium



March 21, 2008

grabbed suddenly
from behind in my sleep
amorous shadow



March 22, 2008

WE MEET AGAIN

a past life's pull
our inappropriate kiss
on first meeting

I see how he cares
maybe I'll grow
to like him later

two long rows
of feathered white peace pipes
he bends to light one

pointing to the dome
hiding my heart
this teenage shaman



March 24, 2008

ACTING OUT

we differ on how
to perform the rescue
soap opera scene

I cover the window
in dripping mounds of fake snow
an actor grins through

my scene is down there
with the smiling young actress
snowed-in basement



March 25, 2008

BORROWING TROUBLE

I assure her
the loan will be okayed
stack of forms

her son's nephew dies
the obit
in her loan approval



March 26, 2008

slim floorboard gaps
expose the room below
guilt-ridden spying



March 27, 2008

alternating nights
of sex, death, sex, death
solitary days



March 28, 2008

William Shatner* and I
were once very good friends
Oh Captain, my Captain

[*William Shatner is the actor who played Captain Kirk in the classic Star Trek T.V. show. He has also been a recurring friendly visitor in my dreams over many years. The last line of the dreamku is a reference to the Walt Whitman poem of the same name. Though not in the dream, when writing the dreamku it surfaced as containing exactly the mourning tone of the dream.]



March 29, 2008

IN PASSING

my ex embraces
then lifts me carefully
long subway stairs

desire stirs
he leaves me on my feet
on the city sidewalk



March 30, 2008

TOO CLEVER BY A HALF

down escalator
my costume so good no one
recognizes me

blue, blue, blue suede shoes
even dressed as half-man
half-woman I'm lonely



March 31, 2008

THE LAY OF THE LAND

re-mapping flight
I sit outside between the wings
they bend

I insist we turn back
as we're so far from home
mirror-bright lakes


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,

Roswila

[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems.

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Saturday, November 03, 2007

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN OCTOBER 2007

The Ace of Pentacles in The Tarot of the Cat People


Sheesh! What a month. I know I keep saying how busy and/or stressed out I am, but this month really took the cake. An on-line psiber dreaming conference at which I presented a workshop on dreamku that continued for a full two weeks, followed right away by a trip to California (Santa Barbara), and that followed by a trip way upstate New York (Saranac Lake). Both trips were to check out retirement residences (the first also was to visit a few dear friends).

Just the thought of pulling up the 23 years’ worth of roots I have in this apartment makes me nauseous, but it is time to do so. However, there are many other considerations and I’ve been worrying myself sick over everything. I’d love to put it all off, take in a short-term roommate and save more money, then move later. But I know it will only get harder to do so as I get even older. So my sense is to do it now if at all possible, no matter how objectively (and subjectively) hard it is. I see these considerations and struggles and hopes salted throughout the dreamku below.

My dreams this month also consistently supported my continuing to work toward moving, no matter how I was feeling. As did all the Tarot card readings I did. Without these two support systems I do not know if I’d still be pursuing the (waking) dream of moving.


ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN OCTOBER 2007


October 1, 2007

she freezes in joy
while learning the new group dance
her lost solo spin



October 2, 2007

STAR TREK

upside down star flight
William Shatner and I
rescued by Pegasus

we make our landing
before the first crew saved
dinner on hold

she has dyed her hair
to honor She who taught her
new Elder

the man's elegant
and lengthy meal blessing
my adopted homeland



October 3, 2007

harvest moon
we bait our trap
with a fake King



October 4, 2007

he says the garden
drains into the other world
I’ve always known this



October 5, 2007

I sit at the edge
with his illegible notes
letting go



October 6, 2007

evening walk
she reaches the crosswalk
labor pains start



October 7, 2007

the Magi can’t be
banned from the new housing
it’s their work



October 8, 2007

popping blouse buttons
I see why she chose
a big jacket



October 9, 2007

STABBED ALIVE*

I can't pull out the knife
I stabbed into my stomach
a coat drapes over

long staircase down
I defeat the evil man
despite my old wound

revisiting the knifing
I learn he, not me, caused it
to what end?

it hurts too much
to try to remove the knife
I leave it be


*"Now he's been stabbed alive. He's seeing things." Joyce Cary: "The Horse's Mouth"



October 10, 2007

wood sorrel for
the reddish spots on our skin
she’s in denial



October 11, 2007

improved proportion
the pale statue sticks
out her neck



October 12, 2007

dream pronouncement
the slew of sneakers means
time to run home



October 13, 2007

HANGING IN THE BALANCE

a picture of a
threatened lake hangs in the air
it must continue

I walk into the
painting of sunlit water
baby elephants wade

a man departs to
assure the lake's survival
a kiss farewell



October 14, 2007

too thick too sweet
the dark liquor he asks me
to drink with him



October 15, 2007

I do a sexy dance
in black fish net stockings
a switch in styles



October 16, 2007

pentacle of light
she stands tall and views their
solid beginning

[I drew the Ace of Pentacles in the Tarot of the Cat People (see top of post) at random on a forgotten dream.]



October 17 - 22, 2007

a man and a boy
flattened between window panes
house arrest

* * * *

the search this time
will be of deep sea trenches
should I volunteer

* * * *

the A/C on a cord
smashes into the building
I owe for repairs

[The three above were dreamed and written while I was away in California. ]



October 23, 2007

she tries to skim
the surface in a lawn chair
new swimming pool game



October 24, 2007

you are right
to travel on from them all
no second guessing

[dreamed and written 10-13-07; then I "heard" the dreamku repeated, again and again in a dream on October 23, 2007]



October 25, 2007

I cling to the rug
as it flies far back in time
Scottish hearth



October 26, 2007

charged for the batch of
small things we did not receive
accused of fraud



October 27, 2007

I sort
the kielbasa by sex
neatly shelved females



October 28, 2007

DRESSED FOR SUCCESS

ruffled pink outfit
she dresses
for the long haul

holding on tight
she slides down the garden path
all too easy

she bottoms out
her ex-boyfriend
greets her

she starts to climb up
good hand holds abound
for the first time



October 29, 2007

my lengthy efforts
she hesitates to offer
small corrections



October 30, 2007

a crack in reality
little devils
dance the conga



October 31 to November 3, 2007

I try to warn him
about my checkbook errors
he lauds my hairstyle

* * * *

dream mural
my blind friend points out
the back-tracking snake

* * * *

I build a small
white wood Tarot triptych
witch house

[From dreams I had while visiting the retirement residence upstate. The last dream above had a pun in it that I only recognized on reading the resultant dreamku out loud: "which" house. And that's my question right now, still not knowing when, where and even if I'll be moving into a retirement residence.]


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,

Roswila

[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT.

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Tuesday, October 02, 2007

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2007


"Return to Anahata," Tarot Dream Card Collage, by Patricia Kelly


I just did the Tarot Dream Card Collage above Friday as part of an online Tarot workshop led by Lauren Schneider (in the International Association of the Study of Dreams/Psiber Dreaming & The Arts Conference). In one of the exercises she suggests we design our own Tarot card referencing a dream. Mine above is about the last dreamku in the dream series listed below for September 25th, which also has some explanation. (By the way, I presented my dreamku workshop at the conference on Sunday, September 30th. More on that in the future.)

Okay, this month seems to have a lot of religious/spiritual symbols, including my power animals – horse and tiger. Yes, I’d say matters of the spirit have been more apparent than usual. And I wrote my first dream tanka – see September 13th. The Pope is in it. Ain’t that a hoot for this old agnostic solitary Pagan? Of course, my Tarotologist’s mind goes right to the fact that The Hierophant/High Priest in The Tarot is also often called The Pope. But I’d say the Catholic Pope was also intended by that dream, as he was celebrating the Mass. Lastly with respect to this issue: I was raised Catholic. So it’s a many layered image, as the vast majority of all dream images tend to be.


ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2007


September 1, 2007

THE KISS

I sit by the door
while prom-goers play sports
no kiss yet

not my hope, but fun
he kisses my living
black and white photo



September 2, 2007

ESCALATING

broken escalator
the dirty guy waits for help
to fix it

she and I walk off
the stalled escalator
flights of stairs loom

echoing staircase
I try to follow but she's
too far ahead



September 3, 2007

the cat cannot birth
the last two fears
greed and happiness



September 4, 2007

I look to see if
she’s still following along
she’s turned off



September 5, 2007

I assemble
the white log cabin model
missing links



September 6, 2007

BEACHED

again and again
she does not respond to me
pushed over the ledge

stuck down on the beach
with the tide coming in
a boy goes for help

will they be able
to heft me up the sand ledge
weighty issue



September 7, 2007

long ride home
my deceased mother
points out the way



September 8, 2007

the horse falls in
a cat scrambles out
dirty fur



September 9, 2007

she needs to believe
Xena is her baby’s sire
highway rest stop



September 10, 2007

there’s no letter C
on her chocolate cell phone
I leave to fix it



September 11, 2007

IN MEMORY*

a path of rubble
the familiar man
teaches us a hymn

*I shared this dreamku last year on the anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attack on the Tiwn Towers here in New York City. I post it here this year also in memory and in the hope that those far more deeply affected by this tragedy than I (who was fortunate not to lose anyone, just my job) are finding healing.



September 12, 2007

ON GESTATION*

expectant
tiger stripes on her large
finger tip nipples

in a horse costume
with milk-heavy teats
living history

* From a dream of 9/11/07; Tiger and Horse are my two "Power Animals."



September 13, 2007

[my first dream tanka]

Mass is celebrated
behind the blank white wall
I kneel before it
from a speaker near my head
the Pope's voice



September 14, 2007

the chocolate bus
do I have to go gambling
to ride it?



September 15, 2007

the devil child
comes through the closet
where’s mama?



September 16, 2007

falling out
of the plane wheel assembly
a toddler boy



September 17, 2007

many small mogul-like
bumps on the bar wall
a nazi in one



September 18, 2007

her star-shaped keys his mishandling

[one-liner; where possible it's effective and fun to make a sort of pivot between the two sections, making it read two different ways. E.g, in this one it can be read: her star-shaped keys//his mishandling, or her star-shaped//keys his mishandling. I've certainly not fully developed this little twist in one-liners, but it seems to be emerging slowly. :-)]



September 19, 2007

embraced from behind his hand on my heart

[another one-liner]



September 20, 2007

at the ACM
to buy our protection
her intense envy



September 21, 2007

belittled
my white pearl/red rose/unknown
poem-earring



September 22, 2007

the female pilot
rushes to her star-fighter
actresses at war



September 23, 2007

murder and disease
in the small chapel
is caring worth it?



September 24, 2007

A NEW DANCE*

city-wide disaster
they teach blind folk
how to get around

black screen
only the newscaster's voice

they fumble along
in the dark T.V. station
determined staff

blind punk
she resists but learns new steps

lone drummer
a blind man starts
an hispanic dance

Chandler** moves aside
the blind man dances forward

*a sort of renga, in that it's written in alternating verses of 3 and 2 lines
**on waking I was immediately struck by the fact that this name means "candle maker"



September 25, 2007

THE THIRD TIME'S THE CHARM

he asks for a hug
but keeps it short and distant
my frustration

he's irritated
I can't take notes faster
"Now I've lost the words!"

I find the Irish beach
tape he wants me to view
Anahata* Castle

* This is what the castle in the distance on a beach was called in the dream. Until I googled it on waking I did not recall it's the name for the Heart Chakra. I learned for the first time today though that in Sanskrit "anahata" is said to mean "sound made without two things striking."



September 26, 2007

CHOICES

I did the same work
before she was even born
possible new boss

the male worker
clearly cannot stand me
all too familiar

the files are a mess
and crammed into the drawers
her bright red dress

she expects me
to be at her beck and call
do I want this job



September 27, 2007

nude and unconcerned
on the archipelago
it’s their problem



September 28, 2007

wooden poor box
I pick up dimes and pennies
but leave the quarters



September 29, 2007

a new morning
"the wheat of beast-tide
beside me"*

*words in quotes were in my mind as I woke



September 30, 2007

invited in the dream
to join a women’s club
awake, asked again*

*This is an appropriate end for this month’s dreamku. It’s a psi dream [predicted a future event] and I’m currently participating in the PsiberDreaming Conference 2007.


* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,

Roswila

[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT.

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