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Saturday, November 29, 2008

ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN NOVEMBER 2008



It’s been one of those rather difficult months. I had several emotional meltdowns and have been somatizing a lot. I’ve had more physical malaise in the last two and half months than in the previous two and a half years. Today I’m coping with a ripening head cold. All of which indicates how stressed out I’ve let myself become. As I read through this month’s dreamku I was struck that the posts for November 23 and November 20 may have some wisdom to offer me. They are from two dreams (possibly one, I’m not sure) from one night. Although I initially posted them out of date order, they were definitely dreamed in the order immediately below:

(posted November 23, 2008)

he drives us off a cliff
into a ripe cornfield that’s
a full story tall
we fall slowly and land
safely amidst the green stalks

he wants to drive straight
ahead immediately
sure that he knows best
I want to check out options
to the right? to the left?


(posted November 20, 2008)

I stand in a field
of fully ripe golden grain
soft earth vibrations
starting around me grain stalks
bend gracefully to the ground

a crop circle grows
spiraling out through the field
awe in the morning

That November 20th posting was such a wonderful dream experience. I was at the center of glorious mystery. On reading the November 23rd tanka pair in which there’s a fall and then disagreement on how to proceed, I extract this advice from the subsequent November 20th dream’s images: stay centered in the mystery of life as it circles around you. I’m also inclined to interpret the first two tanka as representing left brain -- thinking, linear, either/or responses to life, and the November 20th post to right brain -- intuiting, spiraling, not either/or but both and more experience. I’ve wandered way too often from my more natural tendency to right brain experience over the past couple of months and am endlessly grateful for the November 20th dream post’s awesome reminder to come home far more frequently. Nay, to recognize that I am always at home.



ALL DAILY DREAMKU POSTED IN NOVEMBER 2008

November 1, 2008

the glowing globe falls
in the water off dockside
terrifying everyone
this is a world invasion
we prepare to sail off

I start screwing
one of the four corner poles
into a boat’s deck
but find that it’s way too tall
hitting the dock over-hang

back on solid ground
I say, yes, my family
are mobsters all
but they are still my family
and my ties to them alive

gossip starts to spread
about my relatives:
willing collaborators

[three dream tanka & one dreamku, on one dream]



November 2, 2008

the closing comment
“all the guards are gone”
should I be worried?



November 3, 2008

the bus/elevator
makes a stop but it’s not
the last or even right
one for us all, it’s just
another along the way

[dream tanka]



November 4, 2008

all stores I was wont
to buy binge food in are closed
huge sighs of relief



November 5, 2008

I click on the icon
and a small vague ghost rises
she tells me to guess
what she has to offer me
her black and white stripes wavering

I have no trouble
stating what this young genie
has bottled for me
when she quietly questions:
but what do I need of you

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 6, 2008

I do not welcome
his sexual advances
in the empty lobby
later he proudly gossips
that he’d laid hands on me

[dream tanka]



November 7, 2008

she arrogantly says
(as if none of us noticed)
that the office is closed
as always I ignore her:
this time bomb in denial

[dream tanka]



November 8, 2008

[see photo at top of post]

surprise greeting
a grinning tiger's whiskers
tickle my face

[The Siberian Tiger (and by extension all tigers) is one of my power animals; Horse is the other. So when a tiger or horse shows up in a dream it has special significance to me. In this case, Tiger was waking me unusually gently to the need to be really focused in the immediate moment. There’s also something in this dream image about a need to be more assertive; I felt that the tiger’s expression softened a more usual association of aggression into assertion.]



November 9, 2008

I'm disappointed
when he makes a quick attempt
to kiss her not me
as the subway train doors close
he blows her another kiss

[dream tanka]



November 10, 2008

he’s younger than I
and we’d not met up in years
convenient marriage
I decide it might work out
as he was married before

[dream tanka]



November 11, 2008

his worry showing
my lover watches as I
enjoy the rock group
the sad refrain they sing:
I’ll always land on darker ground

[dream tanka]



November 12, 2008

my uncle reams out
my clearly downcast father
as I defend him
my uncle turns on me
with his vituperation

I have problems but
that doesn’t mean I’m worthless:
my forceful response

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



November 13, 2008

in the days she stands
on the long police line-up
her pregnancy swells
she’s there to contain the thugs
not to be booked for a crime

[dream tanka]



November 14, 2008

the star presses him
against the wall with her full-
term pregnant belly
his fear and trembling fades as
she tells him he’s the father

[dream tanka]



November 15, 2008

young Clark Kent drives me
to a well-known necking spot
asking if it’s OK
I assent and feel only
brief concern for my safety

on the way to neck
we clean a gunky glass disk
joy at getting clear

[dream tanka & dreamku on one dream]



November 16, 2008

the spacious ranch home
is owned by a mobster
a funeral’s faked
to draw a hit man’s focus
off the mobster family

[dream tanka]



November 17, 2008

my old haunted home
I tell guests to just intend
and a ghost will come



November 18, 2008

the beauty pageant begins
both men and women entrants
parade one by one
each waiting in the spotlight for
their gorgeous female escort

the last three entrants
wait side-by-side for escorts
an announcer says
each of the 50 contestants
stands for a different state

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 19, 2008

I don’t see the cliff
as I park my motorcycle
scramble from the edge



November 20, 2008

I stand in a field
of fully ripe golden grain
soft earth vibrations
starting around me grain stalks
bend gracefully to the ground

a crop circle grows
spiraling out through the field
awe in the morning

[dream tanka and dreamku on one dream]



November 21, 2008

AN ANCIENT GOD RISING**

she won't let me go
til I give what I owe her
paid receipt ignored

captive overnight
I can't find any toothpaste
women observe

I cling to outrage
at being held hostage
where's my purse

how's your daughter
I ask my captor
she doesn't let go

a nice white-haired man
dozens of plane flight brochures
but none for my home

my admiration
his encyclopedia
of esoteric wisdom

altered state
The Fool* pushes a pharoah
into a grave

downed after struggle
the pharoah
in viscous liquid

a God of Babylon
rises from grey-aqua muck
huge genitals pend

[*The Fool, a combination of the one in the Tarot and the sort of fool Kings had in their courts.]
[**Dreamku series on one dream from September 2007 -- when I had this dream it precipitated research into Gods of Babylon; given I'm finding this dream intriguing again I should probably read up once more on the God this dream seemed to refer to (I think I recall somehow determining it was Ea). :-D]



November 23, 2008

he drives us off a cliff
into a ripe cornfield that’s
a full story tall
we fall slowly and land
safely amidst the green stalks

he wants to drive straight
ahead immediately
sure that he knows best
I want to check out options
to the right? to the left?

[two dream tanka on one dream]



November 24, 2008

I take raw chopped beef
from the stove top frying pan
cook, and savor it
an older man tells a younger
to roll the rest paper thin

they question if I
have taken any beef or not
why don’t they see?

[one dream tanka & a dreamku on one dream]



November 25, 2008

there’s a ghost in the
room behind, right now, a man
a minute man



November 26, 2008

we both dream of gays
mine fill a large store window
giving sexy massages



November 27, 2008

his stare concerns me
as I climb down from the tree
determination prevails
I retrieve my crumpled words
by the muddy lotus pond

[dream tanka]



November 28, 2008

repeat frustration
images I can’t connect
though I know they do



November 29, 2008

we quietly whisk
the toddler girl away
sex in public



November 30, 2008

at the co-worker
cookout on the large green lawn
I apologize
that my wide butt’s in his way
he says he rather likes it

[dream tanka]

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‘til next time, keep dreaming,





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