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Saturday, November 03, 2007


The Ace of Pentacles in The Tarot of the Cat People

Sheesh! What a month. I know I keep saying how busy and/or stressed out I am, but this month really took the cake. An on-line psiber dreaming conference at which I presented a workshop on dreamku that continued for a full two weeks, followed right away by a trip to California (Santa Barbara), and that followed by a trip way upstate New York (Saranac Lake). Both trips were to check out retirement residences (the first also was to visit a few dear friends).

Just the thought of pulling up the 23 years’ worth of roots I have in this apartment makes me nauseous, but it is time to do so. However, there are many other considerations and I’ve been worrying myself sick over everything. I’d love to put it all off, take in a short-term roommate and save more money, then move later. But I know it will only get harder to do so as I get even older. So my sense is to do it now if at all possible, no matter how objectively (and subjectively) hard it is. I see these considerations and struggles and hopes salted throughout the dreamku below.

My dreams this month also consistently supported my continuing to work toward moving, no matter how I was feeling. As did all the Tarot card readings I did. Without these two support systems I do not know if I’d still be pursuing the (waking) dream of moving.


October 1, 2007

she freezes in joy
while learning the new group dance
her lost solo spin

October 2, 2007


upside down star flight
William Shatner and I
rescued by Pegasus

we make our landing
before the first crew saved
dinner on hold

she has dyed her hair
to honor She who taught her
new Elder

the man's elegant
and lengthy meal blessing
my adopted homeland

October 3, 2007

harvest moon
we bait our trap
with a fake King

October 4, 2007

he says the garden
drains into the other world
I’ve always known this

October 5, 2007

I sit at the edge
with his illegible notes
letting go

October 6, 2007

evening walk
she reaches the crosswalk
labor pains start

October 7, 2007

the Magi can’t be
banned from the new housing
it’s their work

October 8, 2007

popping blouse buttons
I see why she chose
a big jacket

October 9, 2007


I can't pull out the knife
I stabbed into my stomach
a coat drapes over

long staircase down
I defeat the evil man
despite my old wound

revisiting the knifing
I learn he, not me, caused it
to what end?

it hurts too much
to try to remove the knife
I leave it be

*"Now he's been stabbed alive. He's seeing things." Joyce Cary: "The Horse's Mouth"

October 10, 2007

wood sorrel for
the reddish spots on our skin
she’s in denial

October 11, 2007

improved proportion
the pale statue sticks
out her neck

October 12, 2007

dream pronouncement
the slew of sneakers means
time to run home

October 13, 2007


a picture of a
threatened lake hangs in the air
it must continue

I walk into the
painting of sunlit water
baby elephants wade

a man departs to
assure the lake's survival
a kiss farewell

October 14, 2007

too thick too sweet
the dark liquor he asks me
to drink with him

October 15, 2007

I do a sexy dance
in black fish net stockings
a switch in styles

October 16, 2007

pentacle of light
she stands tall and views their
solid beginning

[I drew the Ace of Pentacles in the Tarot of the Cat People (see top of post) at random on a forgotten dream.]

October 17 - 22, 2007

a man and a boy
flattened between window panes
house arrest

* * * *

the search this time
will be of deep sea trenches
should I volunteer

* * * *

the A/C on a cord
smashes into the building
I owe for repairs

[The three above were dreamed and written while I was away in California. ]

October 23, 2007

she tries to skim
the surface in a lawn chair
new swimming pool game

October 24, 2007

you are right
to travel on from them all
no second guessing

[dreamed and written 10-13-07; then I "heard" the dreamku repeated, again and again in a dream on October 23, 2007]

October 25, 2007

I cling to the rug
as it flies far back in time
Scottish hearth

October 26, 2007

charged for the batch of
small things we did not receive
accused of fraud

October 27, 2007

I sort
the kielbasa by sex
neatly shelved females

October 28, 2007


ruffled pink outfit
she dresses
for the long haul

holding on tight
she slides down the garden path
all too easy

she bottoms out
her ex-boyfriend
greets her

she starts to climb up
good hand holds abound
for the first time

October 29, 2007

my lengthy efforts
she hesitates to offer
small corrections

October 30, 2007

a crack in reality
little devils
dance the conga

October 31 to November 3, 2007

I try to warn him
about my checkbook errors
he lauds my hairstyle

* * * *

dream mural
my blind friend points out
the back-tracking snake

* * * *

I build a small
white wood Tarot triptych
witch house

[From dreams I had while visiting the retirement residence upstate. The last dream above had a pun in it that I only recognized on reading the resultant dreamku out loud: "which" house. And that's my question right now, still not knowing when, where and even if I'll be moving into a retirement residence.]

* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,


[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT.

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Monday, October 29, 2007

SCIFAIKU FOR HALLOWEEN/SAMHAIN in Response to One Deep Breath Prompt of 10/29/07

The prompt this week at One Deep Breath is “change.” October 31st marks a big change with All Hallow’s Eve and then the subsequent All Soul's Day. It is also New Year’s (Samhain) in my pagan tradition. So, as I hurry off to upstate New York to visit another retirement residence I’m interested in, I thought I’d leave you with some of my old scifaiku (haiku-like poems with scfifi/fantasy/horror themes) for Halloween/Samhain. I seriously doubt I’ll have any computer access at all during the three days I’m away, so I may not be able to make any posts, or check emails or comments until November second.

ghosts roar out
of the mercury waves
beached on old earth

* * * *

this new world’s fire
refuses to burn witches
kindred spirits

* * * *

bog fires
the fleshless bones of dancers
mark their own rhythms

* * * *

line of ghouls – Fresh Death Sale!

* * * *

hide in the caves, child
the Dragon is hungry
Green Cheese Moon

* * * *

an ego for lunch
hungry again in one hour
psi-vamp on the prowl

* * * *

snatching a soul
through the veil

* * * *

through your ghostly form
my sorrowing reach

* * * *

a nine-way kiss
takes some getting used to
hydra lover

* * * *

only dust
she sweeps where his soul
briefly danced

* * * *

immortal prison
your soul in the keep
of my dark heart

* * * *

the dark refuses
to hurry
a sun always rises

* * * *

‘til next time, keep dreaming,


[aka: Patricia Kelly]

****If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT.

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