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Saturday, May 25, 2019

EVERYTHING'S TENUOUS (photomorph) & "coulda lived better..." (dream-based little poem) by Roswila


coulda lived better
coulda lived a whole lot worse
life is in the “is”


[I was chanting these lines in a dream of 3-17-2008. I re-post it today as a much needed reminder to stay as much as possible in the “is.” And not to forget that I’ve been neither as “good” a person as I might have wished, nor as “bad” as I’ve feared. BTW, after some thought back in 2008 as to whether this was a dreamku, I decided it is more appropriately called a little poem. Though there are those who might disagree, as it really is more an aphorism. In any case, it teaches too clearly and evokes too little to be a dreamku. Funny thing is, as I sat more with the memory of the dream the day I wrote this, I think I was actually trying to write a song in that dream. :-D Photomorph “Everything’s Tenuous” (Screenshots 2-4-19[5]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Friday, May 24, 2019

EVERY MEMORY HAS ITS SHADOW (photomorph) & GONE (dream/memory with comments) by Roswila


GONE

the lucid watcher* confirms this is not only a dream
but based on a clear memory of decades ago, though
it seems an odd dream, being a re-living with nothing
new or the slightest bit surreal decorating it:

I’ve not been brought to the room I always get when
going on vacation to this white wood Inn on this
beautiful, small island, and do not like the one
the new owner takes me to instead (too close to
the front desk and its phones and other activity); and
when I ask if there is some other room I could see he
hurries me to one a distance from the main entrance, off
an empty balcony at the back of the Inn that gives me a
brief uh-oh feeling in my stomach: in this off-season time,
I’ll be way too isolated here, with few -- if any -- other
vacationers staying in the Inn; I even have a sense he’d
known I’d not like this room at all and then accept
the first he’d led me to, which is what I immediately
do, anxious to put my suitcase down and take a leisurely
walk through the fog into town for dinner; oh, and that
is another change: the restaurant down a flight of stairs
at the side of the Inn, is no longer there,
so my routine for dinners is also
shot

I never did go back to this beloved island I’d gone
to every year (sometimes twice) for 10 years,
and all these years since I’ve simply assumed it was
only because I could not afford to anymore – which was
patently true, I was sinking fast financially – but now
after this dream/memory I see that how I’d housed and
fed myself was as important as the long hikes along
roads and pathways that always ended up at a beach,
happily alone in all sorts of glorious weather; without
my familiar home base to take off from in the morning
and return to at dinner time, I’d felt lost, at loose ends,
unmoored, fearful even: that uh-oh feeing never quite
leaving the pit of my stomach no matter which in-town
restaurant I ate in or how much I indulged my appetite,
the security I’d always felt as I explored the little island
– rarely taking much note of my isolation but
reveling in it when I did –
was gone


[dream of 5-23-19, with comments. *"Lucid watcher," my way of describing the experience of not only being aware I’m dreaming as I am dreaming, but of watching myself as the one in the dream action. It was a very odd experience to so accurately dream a memory. But for the watcher “I” I may have thought it was actually happening. Have lots more thinking to do about this dream and my comments on it. So far, though, I’d say it’s an echo of how I feel about my life where I live now. What had been my joy is in pieces, gone. Now what do I do? Photomorph “Every Memory Has Its Shadow” (11-10-09 8105ev3[2]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

TREE OF NIGHT (photomorph) & "he nick-names me ..." (dreamku) by Roswila


he nick-names me
Ponderosa Pat
I wake up laughing


[old dreamku on an even older dream of 10-16-06, first posted in October of 2010, and re-posted 5-23-19. Yeah, and I’ve only gotten more “ponderous” over the years. BWG (big wry grin). BTW, I mean that both literally (weight and/or arthritis) and personality-wise (way too seriously inclined, if not outright depressed most of the time the past couple of years). The accompanying photomorph -- “Tree of Night” 7-5-09 3326v16[3] -- is one I made today from a 10-year-old pic of mine.]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

BATTLE OF THE HAUNTS (photomorph) & LOVE SLAIN (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


LOVE SLAIN

the look on her pale face that radiates oddly, might be
comical were it not for the terrible sadness washing through it
like an inevitable surf: he’s caught out the truth of her torturous
trip to this massive graveyard on the hill; no, not simply to view
the burial site of her love who’s interred here (whom she both
dreadfully misses and is grateful is gone) but that she’s
the murderer that necessitated another grave be added
to this monstrous mound of mourning; the man who’s sussed
out this truth touches her lightly on her shoulder reassuring
her it’s nothing new at all, that everyone (as the old poem
propounds) kills the one they love*; that in fact, love truly
does make the world go ‘round:
love slain


[free verse poem on a dream of 5-21-19. *I dreamed this famous assertion from the poem:"The Ballad of Reading Gaol," by Oscar Wilde; most relevant: first and last stanzas. I should fess up that I’d not ever read the entire poem before googling it this morning. I also read a few analyses of it today and don’t fully agree with any of them. In any case, it’s an intense poem, well worth the time to read. BTW, the Christian references don’t resonate all that well with me -- though one can certainly understand Christ’s crucifixion as the killing of love -- as I'm not Christian. So, I choose to place the spiritual references in a psychological context. Even as I wonder if there's any analysis of this poem out there, recognizing what I see as a possible parallel being made between the person executed for murder and the crucifixion of Christ. Even between the poet himself and Christ. Photo: “Battle of the Haunts” (1-2-18 007vf[2]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

DANGER (dreamku mandala) & "body snatchers" redux ... (haikuesque) by Roswila


“body snatchers” redux!
they’ve left a deeply cranky changeling
in place of my soul


[Don’t know what to call the form this is written in, or if it really fits any form. (Similarly, where does my displaced soul fit anymore?) But it might be called a haikuesque, as a dear friend of a great many years ago used to call small poems that echoed haiku. Written 5-21-19. Trailer for the old movie “Invasion of the Body Snatchers”. I may also post this to an email list for scifaiku – a haiku-like form with a sci-fi/fantasy/horror/cosmological theme -- that I have participated in for many years. Image: “Danger” (Haiga folder, danger dreamku mandala 2[2]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Monday, May 20, 2019

FEED ME! (photomorph) & "high anxiety..." (non-dream senryu) by Roswila


high anxiety
I turn on the hungry printer
but it behaves!


[senryu written 5-20-19. Hardly worth the effort to post. However, I thought a positive experience is overdue to be shared here. This printer’s been jamming regularly and although I’ve begun research on a new one, I really can’t afford it. It’s been jamming for months and (so far) I do eventually get it to print. But what a procedure. Worth what little sanity I have left. And I had to print poems for the poetry wall I manage here in our dining room (for work by our fellow residents). Yeah, I could have put up an explanatory note on the poetry wall as to why no new poems recently. But I did not want to. So took courage in hand and voila! The printer cooperated. There will be fresh poems and a Memorial Day graphic posted by late this afternoon. It must have been a sketch to watch how gingerly I handled the printer, holding my breath on each approach.
😊 Waiting for it to chew on the paper. At least it never gnawed on me in the past when I was checking out its insides and removing bits of paper. Photomorph “Feed Me!” (Screenshots 2-7-19[9]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Sunday, May 19, 2019

SAMURAI HORSE (haiga) & THIS ROUGH RIDE (free verse poem in response to dreams) by Roswila


THIS ROUGH RIDE

were you to respect my insistent plea
and remove these reins you have on me
I’d probably just stand here, waiting
for your next tug, too well trained
after all these years to go on alone:
to the left? I can do that, to the right?
of course, or ahead into the scary future?
or even double back into the burned-out
plains of the past? all doable at the slightest
memory of the flicker of your hand or smile;
reins or no, your way would remain my way,
good, bad, or otherwise, as I seek out clues
from the remains of our entangled travels
for which way to turn: the price I continue
to pay for my inability to accept total
aloneness on this rough ride


[free verse poem written 5-19-19, based on associations to having “sung” the song “Let Me Go, Lover” on and off all last night in my dreams. Synchronistically, there’s a PBS NOVA special on T.V. right now about the relationship between horses and humans. Not sure the basic metaphor of this poem actually “works,” but I’m sure of so little in my life as I get older and older. I may have said this here before, but rather than learning at this late stage, I feel I’m un-learning mountains of stuff. And anything I believe I learn is provisional as things change on that proverbial dime. So, more and more I’m grasping for and following after -- not without conflict, and only more or less consciously, what has guided me up ‘til now. Even on those occasions when I find that what I hold is probably questionable and/or clearly painful. Image: “Samurai Horse” (Haiga folder, taiga6[2]) by Roswila, a haiga is an image with a small poem on it -- this poem is a 2008 dream-based tanka of mine, the sketch is one of my own from that time]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.