SWEET DESTRUCTION
my apologies to your ego, man,
however, I now know it's not you
I keep yearning after so painfully,
but it's simply (and not so
simply) that deeply sad-sweet
feeling itself that I crave
okay, let me try again to make
myself clear: it's that frustrated
yearning that runs through like a
sugary, shivery river when I think
of still not (and probably never)
having you, that melting as of
neapolitan ice cream into every
vein, down every channel into
the farthest reaches of my body
yeah, this is what I keep hankering
after -- nay, call a spade a spade:
what I'm addicted to --
this thrilling to the repeated rapid
melting that rises beyond any
containment I might manage did
it not wash away everything else
crowding my world for those few
seconds it flashes in every vein,
expanding my heart's limits
like a flooded river's banks,
stranding surprises of seeds
and broken bits everywhere
as it quickly recedes:
and it's entirely up to me what I
create out of this debris, just
as it's a choice whether I want to
go on flinging the floodgates wide
to this sweet destruction that has
very little to do with you, my man
[non-dream free verse poem written 2-22-18. Photomorph "Your Brain on Drugs" (9-27-17, your brain on drugs 2-22-18) by Roswila]
PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).
There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.
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until next time, keep dreaming,
[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
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