ALL DAILY DREAMKU, DREAM TANKA AND PHOTOS BY ROSWILA POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2009
Sigh. September's been a hard month. Harder than might be indicated by the below posts. And it’s gotten harder as I’ve moved on into October. I even double posted two posts, which is extremely unusual. Quite honestly, I’m not even sure I double posted to this blog, or just messed up on my record keeping in my WordPerfect file from which I build this monthly full post.
Finding I’d probably double posted and not caught it did not make me a happy camper, given the increasing frequency of senior moments. I suppose I should really start to worry if I don’t realize I’ve forgotten something. Now isn’t that an absurd statement – if I don’t realize I’ve forgotten, I won’t care at all! Yes, not very sound reasoning, is it. But any little laugh in a storm....
Maybe it’s part of getting even older, all this extra anxiety I’ve been living with. I hope I’ll learn to bear whatever the various components are to my difficult inner life with better grace as I go along. Just as I am struggling to handle all the physical issues.
This dreamku series from the month:
UNDERGROUND HAVEN
what he just did
earns him ardent enemies
dark flying fairy
using his control
of trees the fairy sinks them
he flies down the last
underground haven
the trees’ denizens put on
a grand festival
all trees rise at last
unharmed and lush as ever
costumes peek through leaves
branches bear fey folk
stories abound of how each
spent festival time
have the dark fairy’s
enemies given up
the sky appears clear
... struck me when I dreamed/wrote it as rather pointed. And still does, especially in retrospect. Won’t go on at length about it, except to note that the “enemies” have most definitely not given up. Where’s one’s magickal powers when one needs them, anyway?
Hope your month was peaceful and, if not, at least productive and rewarding.
ALL DAILY DREAMKU, DREAM TANKA, AND PHOTOS BY ROSWILA POSTED IN SEPTEMBER 2009
[PLEASE NOTE that in most browsers you can click on the image for a larger version.]
OLD CLOTHES
she instructs me
to stow all the old clothes
I can’t find room
I wander seeking
a place to throw them out
stores and parking lot
anxiety
I carefully weave a lie
should she want them back
[dreamku series on a dream of 8/31/09; Image: "Shopping Day" by Roswila]
September 2, 2009
after much prep she
still lets herself get all wet
we proceed anyway
[dreamku on a dream of 7-30-09; Image: "Shell Fish" by Roswila]
September 3, 2009
she offers me
her arms in comfort,
this Tender Taynor*
her embrace
does not take in my beliefs
what to think of this
*her name in the dream
[dreamku pair written today on an old dream of 5/25/09 with current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 4, 2009
dream performance
at last we sing All That Jazz
in perfect synch
[dreamku on a dream of 8/23/09; Image by Roswila]
September 5, 2009
I enjoy playing
the stranger's didjeridu
are they impressed
coda the didj sprouts a bird feeder
[dreamku and mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-4-09; Image by Roswila]
September 6, 2009
she gives me a lap rug
to cover my freezing legs
sudden chill
outside the car
she puts on warm clothing
quick change artist
[dreamku pair on a dream of 9-5-09; Image by Roswila]
September 7, 2009
it's expected I'll
care for her again as she dies
second passing
[dreamku on an old dream of 3-6-08, with current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 8, 2009
IT’S MY BUSINESS
of three connections
one is made and quite secure
work is now begun
on the business root to
accommodate other roots
it’s expansion not merging relief
[dream tanka and mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-5-09; Image by Roswila]
September 9, 2009
WHAT’S THE BUZZ
there’s a bed in her room
I take back the big soft couch
I’d loaned her
then I see she has
a roommate using that bed
I offer my couch again
she’s more focused
on her father’s arrival
end of estrangement
tough army man
his disbelief he’d actually
treated himself well
I share how I sometimes
do the same thing when depressed
his dark buzz cut
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-08-09; Image by Roswila]
September 10, 2009
WHAT A PAIR
beaded and quite long
her two new pair of earrings
brief envy
“Which to wear?” she asks
I suggest “The pair with orange
beads that match your blouse...
...watch they don’t catch in your armpits” quick laughter
[two dreamku and a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-09-09; Image by Roswila]
September 11, 2009
NO BABY SITTER
no baby sitter
they put their young son in
a huge outdoor pen
he scrambles through brush
looking for a way out
sunset in the woods
his mother notes
he’s nothing for warmth or play
she’ll get a blanket
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-9-09. On first recalling this dream I leaned briefly toward a negative take – neglect, fear of abandonment, and such. But as I wrote the series I realized it’s actually very positive -- though not totally devoid of some anxiety. My new life here – so intimately involved with nature, especially via all the photos I’m taking – is like one huge play pen for me. I also suspect some childhood memories are being triggered. This same night I had a dream about Florida where I was born, lived until I was five, and visited many times over the years. I sometimes have flashes of Florida when I see a palm trees against the sky here. Image by Roswila]
September 12, 2009
A QUESTION OF PLACE
her roadside bed
under a country night sky
exposed and nervous
the wood frame house
just behind her beckons
opening her dream eyes
she can’t tell where she is
then sees her familiar room
[dreamku & dream tanka on a dream of 8/3/09; Image by Roswila]
September 13, 2009
WHERE’S THE DOOR
we climb the three flights
to my hidden apartment
where’s the door
“Press the carpeted
wall right there,” a neighbor says
it springs open
my friend and I enter
the neighbor outside
hook latches the door
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-12-09; Image: “Light at the End of the Tunnel” by Roswila]
September 14, 2009
[SEE SEPTEMBER 22, 2009; I inadvertently double-posted the dreamku series and photo]
September 15, 2009
UNDERGROUND HAVEN
what he just did
earns him ardent enemies
dark flying fairy
using his control
of trees the fairy sinks them
he flies down the last
underground haven
the trees’ denizens put on
a grand festival
all trees rise at last
unharmed and lush as ever
costumes peek through leaves
branches bear fey folk
stories abound of how each
spent festival time
have the dark fairy’s
enemies given up
the sky seems clear
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-14-09; Image: “Garden Fairies” by Roswila]
September 16, 2009
BODY OF DARKNESS
his job is to find
souls for empty bodies
nomads of the night
I’ve just given up
my own day body
long fruitless struggle
I say I’ll enter
a body of darkness
servant to the night
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-15-09; Image by Roswila]
September 17, 2009
GATHERING MY NEED
family gathering my need to give them what they want
I reach into my purse
and take out bags of chips
for each of them
chips for myself
crowd the bottom of the purse
I wander laughing:
“Just as well I’m not rich.
I’d be spending it all
on you.”
[mono-dreamku and three dreamku on a dream of 9-15-09; Image by Roswila]
September 18, 2009
SHE SHOWS ME
my deceased friend
is slim and dressed to the nines
aqua platform shoes
she shows me that
the shoes are cushioned inside
my surprise
she gladly hurries
to get advice from a new friend
I deny this matters
[dreamku series on a dream of 8-14-09; Image by Roswila]
September 19, 2009
under my hat
the directions I've knotted
into my hair
[dreamku on an old dream of 3-24-08 with some current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 20, 2009
DONKEYS THREE
the middle one’s the shortest three donkeys
each carries a heavy load time to lighten up
he puts the saddle
from one on the short donkey
the sides hit the ground
between the saddle seat
and the small one’s back
nothing but air
[two mono-dreamku and two deamku on a dream of 9-19-09; Don’t ask me! I haven’t the foggiest! Though I'd hazard a guess that a place to start would be about getting something off my back, wanting space ... also some sense I'm not alone in feeling like this in life. Oy! Now I just had the thought maybe the dream's ultimate image says that the burden is all in how I think (air) about it. So if I take it all more lightly, it will be so. Image by Roswila]
September 21, 2009
ANOTHER GARDEN PATH
cool air
on my exposed breast
solitary night
a new man’s touch
I should cover up but want
to trust his desire
a pile of typing
arrives from the new man
do I have time
am I being led
down another garden path
hope stumbles
[dreamku series on a dream of 8/28/09; Image by Roswila]
September 22, 2009
HANGING AROUND
his assumptions
I finally convince him
of my ignorance
though not anxious to
learn his way I go along
hotel room
as I chew more gum
I look for what I owe him
bed rest
another man starts
to make up the double bed
white sheets trap me
I laugh and get out
I’m hanging around too long
as always, I say
[dreamku series on a dream of 8-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 23, 2009
SURVIVING WINTER
our huge herd of sheep
leaves its ewes and nursing lambs
in a green valley
snowed in snugly for a long
and very harsh winter
the rams and older
lambs can’t stay as there’s barely
enough soup and grass
for the nursing ewes and they
feed the herd’s future
as a ewe I must stay
but fear I’ll die of boredom
the call of challenge
I’d rather be hungry with
the rams and grown lambs
but grateful for thin soup
I manage to make new photos
science fiction themes
the rams return
at the harsh winter’s end
our herd is intact
plans to travel to the stars gossip swells
[3 dream tanka, 2 dreamku, and 1 monoku on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 24, 2009
NOT GOOD FOR ME
my father offers me
a lot of sticky sweet treats
he can’t eat them
I know he knows
they’re not good for me either
irritating offer
I say no thank you judgment fades
[two dreamku and a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 25, 2009
POLE DANCING
she pole dances
in spite of her overweight
black and white check blouse
the man snidely says
her weight’s a huge eyesore
not to mention
an even bigger health risk
and what of those who love her
she rounds on him
who doesn’t take risks with
their health – smoking, drinking,
eating the wrong foods, working
too much, not loving enough ...
she won’t stop dancing the firm bright backbone of the pole
[a dreamku, 2 dream tanka, and a monoku on a dream of 9-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 26, 2009
ON SKIDS AND FRICTION
his concern about
skidding on icy streets
gas station stop
two lines to choose from
he picks the one on the right
no installation
no chains or rock salt
this device will signal from
within the car’s trunk
they lay friction strips
in the trunk of the car in front
what use are they
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 27, 2009
SPACER
the story we write
is accepted for filming
space travel saga
I clarify one point:
the young hero used the strength
of his mind alone
to traverse the stars, only
nearing Earth did he need a ship
they don’t know this is not a story memory
[a dreamku, dream tanka, and monoku on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 28, 2009
[SEE SEPTEMBER 30, I inadvertently double-posted the dreamku series and photo.]
September 29, 2009
FOREST FESTIVAL
forest festival
life-size carvings of cowboys
and grizzly bears
festival workers
start to pose for pictures
I’m not enticed
on a roof top
a golden wood Ganesh*
I grab my camera
in my view screen
a different Ganesh
I change my stance
to my surprise
a third Ganesh appears
I move again
magickal statue which angle holds that first delight
[dreamku series capped by a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-29-09; *Ganesh is the elephant-headed Hindu god, one of my personal favorites of all world Deities (see prayer to Him in right-hand column of this page). My initial take on this dream is that at some essential level (wood in dreams has been said to represent one’s essential nature) I’m becoming more and more aware of the on-going transience of things – of literally each and every moment – and wrestling with that. That it’s Ganesh who shows me this in the dream is rather wonderful. I have a deep long-standing trust in what He represents, so it’s as if the dream is saying to trust each moment as it rises in its uniqueness. Also that a moment cannot be truly captured (the camera), only experienced.
Image by Roswila – I see a trumpeting elephant in this photo and hope to re-take it in better light some day. And, yes, I hear myself trying to capture a moment.]
September 30, 2009
WHAT DO I WANT
we’re each taken
yet he comes on to me
late night dinner
his innocent aspect’s
charming and plausible
what do I want
[dream pair on a dream of 9-27-09; Image by Roswila]
* * * *
[PLEASE NOTE that in most browsers you can click on the image for a larger version.]
OLD CLOTHES
she instructs me
to stow all the old clothes
I can’t find room
I wander seeking
a place to throw them out
stores and parking lot
anxiety
I carefully weave a lie
should she want them back
[dreamku series on a dream of 8/31/09; Image: "Shopping Day" by Roswila]
September 2, 2009
after much prep she
still lets herself get all wet
we proceed anyway
[dreamku on a dream of 7-30-09; Image: "Shell Fish" by Roswila]
September 3, 2009
she offers me
her arms in comfort,
this Tender Taynor*
her embrace
does not take in my beliefs
what to think of this
*her name in the dream
[dreamku pair written today on an old dream of 5/25/09 with current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 4, 2009
dream performance
at last we sing All That Jazz
in perfect synch
[dreamku on a dream of 8/23/09; Image by Roswila]
September 5, 2009
I enjoy playing
the stranger's didjeridu
are they impressed
coda the didj sprouts a bird feeder
[dreamku and mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-4-09; Image by Roswila]
September 6, 2009
she gives me a lap rug
to cover my freezing legs
sudden chill
outside the car
she puts on warm clothing
quick change artist
[dreamku pair on a dream of 9-5-09; Image by Roswila]
September 7, 2009
it's expected I'll
care for her again as she dies
second passing
[dreamku on an old dream of 3-6-08, with current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 8, 2009
IT’S MY BUSINESS
of three connections
one is made and quite secure
work is now begun
on the business root to
accommodate other roots
it’s expansion not merging relief
[dream tanka and mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-5-09; Image by Roswila]
September 9, 2009
WHAT’S THE BUZZ
there’s a bed in her room
I take back the big soft couch
I’d loaned her
then I see she has
a roommate using that bed
I offer my couch again
she’s more focused
on her father’s arrival
end of estrangement
tough army man
his disbelief he’d actually
treated himself well
I share how I sometimes
do the same thing when depressed
his dark buzz cut
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-08-09; Image by Roswila]
September 10, 2009
WHAT A PAIR
beaded and quite long
her two new pair of earrings
brief envy
“Which to wear?” she asks
I suggest “The pair with orange
beads that match your blouse...
...watch they don’t catch in your armpits” quick laughter
[two dreamku and a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-09-09; Image by Roswila]
September 11, 2009
NO BABY SITTER
no baby sitter
they put their young son in
a huge outdoor pen
he scrambles through brush
looking for a way out
sunset in the woods
his mother notes
he’s nothing for warmth or play
she’ll get a blanket
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-9-09. On first recalling this dream I leaned briefly toward a negative take – neglect, fear of abandonment, and such. But as I wrote the series I realized it’s actually very positive -- though not totally devoid of some anxiety. My new life here – so intimately involved with nature, especially via all the photos I’m taking – is like one huge play pen for me. I also suspect some childhood memories are being triggered. This same night I had a dream about Florida where I was born, lived until I was five, and visited many times over the years. I sometimes have flashes of Florida when I see a palm trees against the sky here. Image by Roswila]
September 12, 2009
A QUESTION OF PLACE
her roadside bed
under a country night sky
exposed and nervous
the wood frame house
just behind her beckons
opening her dream eyes
she can’t tell where she is
then sees her familiar room
[dreamku & dream tanka on a dream of 8/3/09; Image by Roswila]
September 13, 2009
WHERE’S THE DOOR
we climb the three flights
to my hidden apartment
where’s the door
“Press the carpeted
wall right there,” a neighbor says
it springs open
my friend and I enter
the neighbor outside
hook latches the door
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-12-09; Image: “Light at the End of the Tunnel” by Roswila]
September 14, 2009
[SEE SEPTEMBER 22, 2009; I inadvertently double-posted the dreamku series and photo]
September 15, 2009
UNDERGROUND HAVEN
what he just did
earns him ardent enemies
dark flying fairy
using his control
of trees the fairy sinks them
he flies down the last
underground haven
the trees’ denizens put on
a grand festival
all trees rise at last
unharmed and lush as ever
costumes peek through leaves
branches bear fey folk
stories abound of how each
spent festival time
have the dark fairy’s
enemies given up
the sky seems clear
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-14-09; Image: “Garden Fairies” by Roswila]
September 16, 2009
BODY OF DARKNESS
his job is to find
souls for empty bodies
nomads of the night
I’ve just given up
my own day body
long fruitless struggle
I say I’ll enter
a body of darkness
servant to the night
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-15-09; Image by Roswila]
September 17, 2009
GATHERING MY NEED
family gathering my need to give them what they want
I reach into my purse
and take out bags of chips
for each of them
chips for myself
crowd the bottom of the purse
I wander laughing:
“Just as well I’m not rich.
I’d be spending it all
on you.”
[mono-dreamku and three dreamku on a dream of 9-15-09; Image by Roswila]
September 18, 2009
SHE SHOWS ME
my deceased friend
is slim and dressed to the nines
aqua platform shoes
she shows me that
the shoes are cushioned inside
my surprise
she gladly hurries
to get advice from a new friend
I deny this matters
[dreamku series on a dream of 8-14-09; Image by Roswila]
September 19, 2009
under my hat
the directions I've knotted
into my hair
[dreamku on an old dream of 3-24-08 with some current relevance; Image by Roswila]
September 20, 2009
DONKEYS THREE
the middle one’s the shortest three donkeys
each carries a heavy load time to lighten up
he puts the saddle
from one on the short donkey
the sides hit the ground
between the saddle seat
and the small one’s back
nothing but air
[two mono-dreamku and two deamku on a dream of 9-19-09; Don’t ask me! I haven’t the foggiest! Though I'd hazard a guess that a place to start would be about getting something off my back, wanting space ... also some sense I'm not alone in feeling like this in life. Oy! Now I just had the thought maybe the dream's ultimate image says that the burden is all in how I think (air) about it. So if I take it all more lightly, it will be so. Image by Roswila]
September 21, 2009
ANOTHER GARDEN PATH
cool air
on my exposed breast
solitary night
a new man’s touch
I should cover up but want
to trust his desire
a pile of typing
arrives from the new man
do I have time
am I being led
down another garden path
hope stumbles
[dreamku series on a dream of 8/28/09; Image by Roswila]
September 22, 2009
HANGING AROUND
his assumptions
I finally convince him
of my ignorance
though not anxious to
learn his way I go along
hotel room
as I chew more gum
I look for what I owe him
bed rest
another man starts
to make up the double bed
white sheets trap me
I laugh and get out
I’m hanging around too long
as always, I say
[dreamku series on a dream of 8-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 23, 2009
SURVIVING WINTER
our huge herd of sheep
leaves its ewes and nursing lambs
in a green valley
snowed in snugly for a long
and very harsh winter
the rams and older
lambs can’t stay as there’s barely
enough soup and grass
for the nursing ewes and they
feed the herd’s future
as a ewe I must stay
but fear I’ll die of boredom
the call of challenge
I’d rather be hungry with
the rams and grown lambs
but grateful for thin soup
I manage to make new photos
science fiction themes
the rams return
at the harsh winter’s end
our herd is intact
plans to travel to the stars gossip swells
[3 dream tanka, 2 dreamku, and 1 monoku on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 24, 2009
NOT GOOD FOR ME
my father offers me
a lot of sticky sweet treats
he can’t eat them
I know he knows
they’re not good for me either
irritating offer
I say no thank you judgment fades
[two dreamku and a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 25, 2009
POLE DANCING
she pole dances
in spite of her overweight
black and white check blouse
the man snidely says
her weight’s a huge eyesore
not to mention
an even bigger health risk
and what of those who love her
she rounds on him
who doesn’t take risks with
their health – smoking, drinking,
eating the wrong foods, working
too much, not loving enough ...
she won’t stop dancing the firm bright backbone of the pole
[a dreamku, 2 dream tanka, and a monoku on a dream of 9-24-09; Image by Roswila]
September 26, 2009
ON SKIDS AND FRICTION
his concern about
skidding on icy streets
gas station stop
two lines to choose from
he picks the one on the right
no installation
no chains or rock salt
this device will signal from
within the car’s trunk
they lay friction strips
in the trunk of the car in front
what use are they
[dreamku series on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 27, 2009
SPACER
the story we write
is accepted for filming
space travel saga
I clarify one point:
the young hero used the strength
of his mind alone
to traverse the stars, only
nearing Earth did he need a ship
they don’t know this is not a story memory
[a dreamku, dream tanka, and monoku on a dream of 9-22-09; Image by Roswila]
September 28, 2009
[SEE SEPTEMBER 30, I inadvertently double-posted the dreamku series and photo.]
September 29, 2009
FOREST FESTIVAL
forest festival
life-size carvings of cowboys
and grizzly bears
festival workers
start to pose for pictures
I’m not enticed
on a roof top
a golden wood Ganesh*
I grab my camera
in my view screen
a different Ganesh
I change my stance
to my surprise
a third Ganesh appears
I move again
magickal statue which angle holds that first delight
[dreamku series capped by a mono-dreamku on a dream of 9-29-09; *Ganesh is the elephant-headed Hindu god, one of my personal favorites of all world Deities (see prayer to Him in right-hand column of this page). My initial take on this dream is that at some essential level (wood in dreams has been said to represent one’s essential nature) I’m becoming more and more aware of the on-going transience of things – of literally each and every moment – and wrestling with that. That it’s Ganesh who shows me this in the dream is rather wonderful. I have a deep long-standing trust in what He represents, so it’s as if the dream is saying to trust each moment as it rises in its uniqueness. Also that a moment cannot be truly captured (the camera), only experienced.
Image by Roswila – I see a trumpeting elephant in this photo and hope to re-take it in better light some day. And, yes, I hear myself trying to capture a moment.]
September 30, 2009
WHAT DO I WANT
we’re each taken
yet he comes on to me
late night dinner
his innocent aspect’s
charming and plausible
what do I want
[dream pair on a dream of 9-27-09; Image by Roswila]
* * * *
‘til next time, keep dreaming,
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