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Friday, June 15, 2018

THE DREAM PUSHES ON (photomorph) & "entrancing: the wee ..." (non-dream haiku) by Roswila


entrancing: wee brown
salamander doing push ups on
the sunny sidewalk


[non-dream haiku written 6-12-18. Photomorph "The Dream Pushes On" (3-2-15 005v10b) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

CURLING UP FOR A NAP (photomorph) & A DEWY NEW BIRD (non-dream free verse poem) by Roswila


a dewy new
bird of paradise bud
rests on the curved back
of its blooming neighbor,
hitching a ride under
the wide open sky


[non-dream free verse poem written 5-21-18. Photomorph "Curling Up for a Nap" (7-9-09 3581v3) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Monday, June 11, 2018

WRANGLING WITH THE NIGHT (photomorph) & UNCOMMON (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


UNCOMMON

reading the list
over and over,
item by item,
each purported
to be medicine
for something
else that ails her,
listed first
by its common
name, and then
the Latinate one:
the one she savors
saying out loud,
rolling it on her
tongue like candy,
each syllable
popping and
clicking in her
mouth like
the candy she
should not eat
(but does when
a binge downs
her as surely
as some
handsome
wrangler),
wishing all meds
were as easy
to take as these
delicious, multi-
syllabic, very un-
common words


[free verse poem on a dream of 6-10-18. Photomorph "Wrangling with the Night" (4-13-18 021v4) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Friday, June 08, 2018

STRUGGLING THROUGH (photomorph) & MAYBE LIKE PINOCCHIO (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


MAYBE LIKE PINOCCHIO

first, for all those many months,
it was the male of the species
showing up, mostly more like
haunting her

and now it's the female -- woman
after woman out of her past and
some even known to her in
the present day

each woman -- and often more
than one -- hovers in her dreams,
a fluttering dancer, daring
a later, waking recall

the only thing abundantly clear?
her dream self likes these mostly
frenemies, wants them around,
up close and personal

and so waking self sets her itchy,
long nose to the grindstone of these
memories -- both dream and actual --
mixed and hardened by sunrise
into a closed circle

hoping against hope
there's wisdom to be gained

maybe like Pinocchio she's been lying


[free verse poem inspired by several days dreams, from 6-4-18 through 6-7-18. Photomorph "Struggling Through" (1-30-17 015v4a) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

TAKING A TUMBLE (photomorph) & TUMBLING TROUBLE (mixed format dream poem) by Roswila


TUMBLING TROUBLE

kittens and kittens
and more kittens, wee ones mewling
and tumbling around
my living room floor that's been
covered with pale, soft old quilts

are these large quilts meant
to protect my space, or to give these little bits
a safe place to roam

guess it doesn't matter as both may be true,
and maybe even something altogether else

I just know I'm surprised to see this circus, even
as the implied work for me, gives me great pause

what's that expression?
(or am I making it up to fit this scene)
"Do not have kittens!"*

well, stack it all any way you want to, I've got a
roomful of highly energetic trouble to deal with


[a tanka, with two dreamku and three 2-liners on a dream of 6-6-18. *I've long tended to relate to cats and kittens in my dreams as anger or at least irritation. (Long story as to how I came to that; i.e., many years of dream work.) But decided to Google that expression about "having kittens" to see what else might be hidden in this image of a multitude of kittens. Seems there's also a multitude of meanings, ranging from fear and pain, to anger and anxiety. All of which do describe aspects of my inner world right now (and in my life generally ... sigh). What I find most interesting, actually, is that command not to have kittens. To protect myself, in a way, from myself. :-D Photomorph "Taking A Tumble" (5-13-18 034v2m) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Wednesday, June 06, 2018

SOMEHOW IT ALL HANGS TOGETHER (photomorph) & THREE BLIND MICE (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


THREE BLIND MICE

all three of you familiar men
traipsing casually through my dreams
last night, not a one of you, not one,
exposing who you are (neither literally,
nor metaphorically); not even the two
of you looking for something from me,
declare yourselves openly, and the one
I want the most to understand and even
go after (in my subtle -- nay, call a spade
a spade, anxious, halting way), even he
assumes that all he does and says is
obvious ... well, the only thing that says
to me is that not one of you is aware of,
much less believes in my sensitivity that
like a glass-smooth lake dimples or tosses
under the passing winds, registering the
brush of what lives at the far edges of your
consciousness: an entire universe, way back
there in each of you; hell, I'd hazard a guess
there are unnumbered universes stretching out
endlessly, deep inside of everyone -- yes, to
be clear myself, I'm not yearning after express
and detailed knowledge of each and every unique
cosmos teasing from within the three of you like
the lightly barbed, feathery fingers of ghosts:
just that you stop posing long enough to peer
inside and see their massive patterns yourselves,
then offer me a glimpse, make some attempt to
share a bit of the reality you harbor, speaking
to me in whispery, strange languages from the
distances of our interactions, begging inter-
pretation like hieroglyphs on the stone walls
you present to the world, or endless sheaves of
printed computer code, or a midnight Caribbean
sky filled with more stars than this city-girl's
ever seen, impressing upon my naked eyes that
they cannot be touched


[free verse poem on dreams of 6-5-18. Photomorph "Somehow It All Hangs Together" (5-13-18 034v2f) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Monday, June 04, 2018

THE QUARREL OF LIGHT AND DARK (photomorph) & THERE ARE TIMES WHEN EVEN TWO'S A CROWD (dream narratives) by Roswila


THERE ARE TIMES WHEN
EVEN TWO'S A CROWD

Dream One:

we're back together: it's actually a surprise
when I realize we'd been a continent apart
for decades; we've slipped incredibly
readily into relating and living
together again (I swear we must
have been the original model for the term
"co-dependency" back all those years ago)
... what's no surprise at all? my niggling
fears that I'm not doing any of it right,
am not giving enough, and what little
I manage to offer, is not given often
enough ... sigh, same old, same old ...
and, yeah, to be honest, the same old
vague suspicion that I may not even want
any of what we're doing together enough


Dream Two:

yeah, I figure I'll go the funeral, I may not
have known him very well, but he was an
influential part of our community, it wouldn't
hurt to share with others in offering respects;
but no matter what I do (and it's getting later
and later) I can't find someone to give me
directions to the train to get to the funeral
(not to mention not one vaunted member
of our community offers me a ride); I
keep wending my way through this room
that's crowded with people readying for
the trip to the funeral in another small,
seaside town, and finally hit upon a
young woman who seems not only very
knowledgeable but anxious to help me:
but this, too, goes no place, though I try
to follow her wandering words as she
hems and haws and insists on helping
me, not even the note she hands me
with instructions on where to meet
her family whom she says I can catch
a ride with to the funeral, makes any
sense at all (hieroglyphics would be
more legible, I mumble) and, as usual
(I add soto voce, knowing no one's
listening to me anyway), should I not
get to the funeral I'll be gossiped about
as being uncaring, and if I do get the help
to go to it, I'll be labeled a pest, as surely
as if a sign were pinned to my back
in bright red letters: well, therein lies my
answer since nothing I can do will
please others, I'll please myself:
I go home and curl up for a nap


[narratives on two dreams of 6-3-18. Photomorph "The Quarrel of Light and Dark" (12-14-13 002v2a) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Saturday, June 02, 2018

EVERY WHICH WAY BUT LOOSE (photomorph) & ONE POET'S NOT SO METAPHORICAL QUESTION (non-dream tanka) by Roswila


ONE POET'S NOT SO
METAPHORICAL QUESTION

the last denial:
death does not come to us all,
I'll live on always
for if I cannot imagine non-
being how can it ever happen?


[non-dream tanka written 5-5-18. Like yesterday's tanka, this one's been hanging around for a while. I've even considered scrapping it, and I'm only posting it today because I have nothing else I'd rather. The question is an actual one I came up against in myself and quickly dismissed. But then drafted this tanka about it. It's point puts me in mind of that saying (I've forgotten who said it, was it Carl Sandburg?): Nothing happens unless first a dream. However, I do recognize there's much more to existence than the human mind and it's graspings. At least I think (:-D) I do! Photomorph "Every Which Way But Loose" (12-24-13 010v4a) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Friday, June 01, 2018

MOTHERBOARD MELTDOWN (photomorph) & BY MORNING'S LIGHT (non-dream tanka) by Roswila


BY MORNING'S LIGHT

painful joints yelp "no"
to dust devils teasing from beneath
the bed and each chair
but bend to the chase anyway,
popping like electronic dance music


[non-dream tanka written 5-14-18. Have had this one on the back burner for just such a day. I.e., I have zilch dream recall from last night's dreams and don't feel like re-posting some really old piece. It's also highly appropriate given all the "popping" my poor joints have been doing as I get on with my current on-going project of deep cleaning and re-organizing my rooms. It's fortunate I've learned from long experience that exercise ultimately helps joint pain (once I've sat for a while after a long haul of challenging physical activity). Photomorph "Motherboard Meltdown" (9-29-09 7183v6) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

FACING DOWN THE NIGHT (photomorph) & THE EXCUSE (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


THE EXCUSE

she gets right up in my face,
this, always and ever, pain-
in-my-butt young
woman ...
"You weren't there!" she yelps,
for all the world like a spoiled
puppy seeking a teat on its
mother's litter crowded
belly ...
thing is, I was there, as I'm often
"there," but it's as if -- no matter
should I try not to -- I stand right
in her blind spot whenever something
particularly important to her is
happening ...
truth be told, I know she
doesn't even want me to be
"there," wherever the "there"
of that moment happens to be,
so why do I keep
trying ...
and even more to the point,
why does she bother to get
up in my face about something
I know at a deep intuitive level,
she doesn't truly
want ...
ah, I get it, what she really wants
is to be overtly expressive about
her on-going anger at me: the one
who on occasion chooses not to be
her ersatz mother: not to supply
the teat and the closeness, and
worst, not to ever, ever not be
"there," ...
and so her blind spot steps up
and gives her the excuse


[free verse poem on a dream of 5-27-18. )] Blush! I think this young woman is really an aspect of myself I'd thought I'd outgrown. Ah well, better to know about "her" than not. Maybe we never fully leave behind some difficult aspects/habits. Photomorph "Facing Down the Night" (10-5-09 7296v2d) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

SEEKING A FORM (photomorph) & FLATTENED ORIGAMI (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


FLATTENED ORIGAMI

poem after poem of his falls out of his
missive to me; it's way too much reading
and ruminating to deal with right now;
deceptive, isn't it, that a small envelope
would hold such a pile of carefully folded
pages of poems; as they rest in my lap
like a flock of flattened origami I wonder
what their forms will have to say once
I pry them open, how might they dance
or roll or sing when filled with space and
air again; I know that (as usual) he wants
my feedback on every single one, but just
like their hand addressed jacket the poems,
too, are deceptive; I know all too well from
past experience they will speak in ways I
can't respond totally honestly to, for their
intimate calls will be hidden within the
shadows of their poems' shapes -- hints and
double entendre his overriding style -- and
are always so vague that I begin to wonder
if I might very well simply be projecting


[free verse poem on a dream of 5-27-18. Photomorph "Seeking a Form" (7-5-09 3229ev2f) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Monday, May 28, 2018

NODDING OUT (photo) & SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY (free verse dream poem) by Roswila


SLEEPING WITH THE ENEMY

yeah, why should I be surprised
to find these two sleeping together?
hey, not in that way, I mean that
literally, as in snoring away,
in two separate beds in
the small bedroom

but I really can't stand having her
there now, too, after all these years
of dealing with him, even if I have
grown rather used to him haunting
me, sleeping quietly away
in the background ...

hm, I suppose snoring away is better
than him being fully active and I do
remember to shut that bedroom
door and keep it shut
most of the time

maybe it's not so awful that she's
there now, my two enemies sleeping
together ... I can slam that door or ease
it shut if they're already asleep
and walk away

so what if I live then in my own
kinda, sorta walking dream: peace
is peace, even if it's only an
absence of "in your face"
conflict


[free verse poem based on a dream of 5-17-18. Photo "Nodding Out" (7-5-09 3228e) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post)
; TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Sunday, May 27, 2018

RELEASE (photo) & IT'S ODD (dream narrative) by Roswila


IT'S ODD

it's odd to turn to The President
for his support, any niggling
question about his appropriateness
lost beneath my plea; and what's more
strange is dreaming all this from a bit
of a distance, as if it were a movie
or T.V. show, me played by a striking,
young, blond, slim woman, barely out
of her teens, and Trump, well, pretty
much Trump minus the repugnant
attitudes and posturing I
usually see in him

he listens attentively, and with an
uncharacteristic openness, to my urgent
appeal for the release of that young man
I care so much for, to my insistence
that the man has done nothing wrong,
that it's a matter of prejudice, as so much
of what we humans accuse others of
tends to be

for a few suspended seconds I'm afraid
The President will make a pass at me,
but that doesn't seem to be on his mind
at all, as he ponders my petition;
it's quickly clear he agrees with me
though I'm not sure why and I'm
equally unsure as to whether he
really understands the issue at hand

and so I gather in even more courage
from who knows where and comment
in an almost offhand way so as not to
risk offending that ego of his that I
can feel perking quietly beneath his
dark suit: as you know, Mr. President,
people too often demonize
spiritual paths
not their own

The President smiles indulgently and
pats me on the back, ushering me gently
out of his presence, nicely enough but still
much as if the royal audience is over ...
OK by me, I think, at least my woman's
intuition says he really does agree with me
and now all that remains to be seen is
if he manifests it, or chooses a different
action that will get him something else
he wants more than to help a powerless
young activist and his equally powerless
pretty young thing


[narrative on a dream of 5-25-18. In actuality, I cannot abide our President. And as I said in the comments to another dream I had about him some time ago, he's definitely a shadow figure for me. However, I read this dream as being about how the abused child often grows into an adult who keeps seeking help and understanding from people much like their abusers (but not recognizing or rationalizing that resemblance). I could go on (and on) but won't. Suffice it to say this is a jam packed dream. I'll be chewing on it for some time. Just wish I didn't have to give Trump so much space in my head in order to do so. It's enough I have to tolerate him daily on the T.V. News. Photo "Release" 4-22-10 10010v2) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

* * * *
until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's other blog (dedicated to her photos only, i.e. no poetry or other writing; daily post); TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

CLUTCHING AFTER THE WIND (photo) & WHAT MAKES YOU THINK (dream influenced poem) by Roswila


WHAT MAKES YOU THINK

what a nightmare!
yet despite racketing heart
and shaking limbs, she still
only wants to go back
to sleep, to turn her back
on the massive demands
of the waking world:
even as she thinks this,
an all too familiar voice
rises from the far reaches
of her mind commenting wryly:
"And what makes you think
you've ever been
fully awake?"


[free verse poem resulting from an experience on waking from a nightmare of 4-29-18. I rarely have what I call nightmares. Though many people call a lot of the dreams I write about here nightmares. I.e., this "nightmare" was not one by my definition: a dream so bad I go lucid and wake myself up deliberately to get away from it. But it was very intense and would have met anyone else's definition, I'm sure. I only call it a nightmare here to simplify matters as it is not truly the focus of this poem and the experience on which it's based. I.e., a rather Zen influenced bit of thinking. Waking up is hard to do. I can remember the first time I realized that I had never been fully awake, back in my twenties (I'm 74 now). Stunned me to stopping short, in the middle of a sidewalk. (This was well before I'd had any exposure to Buddhist thought.) And I made the mistake of thinking that meant I was then awake. Since then I have consistently come in an out of feeling more or less awake. Hm, you'd think then, wouldn't yah, that I'd willfully wake myself up from this waking "nightmare" of my life. BWL (big wry laugh). And maybe that's the point: the gift suffering offers is awakening. Wish I could have written that into the poem. But I only came to it on writing these comments. And it is in the poem, if only by vague implication. Photo "Clutching After the Wind" (2-7-10 19448v3) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
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