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SEE ALSO: ROSWILA'S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL (with The Found Tarot) and ROSWILA'S TAIGA TAROT (deck-in-progress) and TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT (Roswila's photos, from realism to abstract)

Sunday, May 31, 2009


[Photo: by Roswila; I have no excuse for posting it with this month of dreamku except that I’m really enjoying learning about digital photography by trial and error and thought it would be nice to share something resulting from joy for a change. :-D BTW, this is on the grounds of the retirement community I live in; you can just make out the pool in the top background. In most browsers, you can click on the photo to see a larger version for some of the detail.]

In reading through this month’s dream pieces, I was immediately struck by this dream tanka from May 3, 2009:

she steps up to buy
one single subway token
responding to her
he fills her open hands to
overflowing with loose change

For sure! Although I did realize I was buying into a ride, I had no idea the enormity of the “changes” that would be precipitated in me, more even than I can ”grasp” all at once. I just love when dream images are puns on words. :-D

I do hope you can find something to enjoy or resonate with or even have some intriguing disagreements with in these nightly ramblings and what I do with them.


May 1, 2009

pile of freebies
the clear plastic shoe
actually fits me

[old dreamku and dream of 4/11/08; when I post old dreamku or dream tanka I've not posted previously, there’s some resonance for me at present]

May 2, 2009

he retorts that
my bare butt IS a big deal
double entendre

[old dreamku and dream of 2/21/08; when I post an old dreamku or dream tanka I've not posted previously, there's some resonance for me at present]

May 3, 2009

she steps up to buy
one single subway token
responding to her
he fills her open hands to
overflowing with loose change

[dream tanka on a dream of 5/2/09]

May 4, 2009

I look down from a dusty shelf
How'm I so sure I won't
like kissing him

[dreamku on a dream of 5/3/09]

May 5, 2009

in my dreams again
half sister but zero friend
the more things change ....

[dreamku on a dream of 5/3/09]

May 6, 2009


dark blue dive
my arms feel so weak and it's
a long swim back up

a young man makes a
strong turn around in the depths
I have little air left

light streams down
willing myself up to it
I poise to dive again

[dreamku series on a dream of 5/05/09]

May 7, 2009


narrow mountain path
the Sacred Cat parade
slowly proceeds

lead wagon
the carnival holy man
sings with his back to us

my ex interrupts
loudly humming an aria
crowded road edge

my intrusive ex
climbs up to sleep in the wagon
we pull him out

[dreamku series on a dream of 5/5/09]

May 8, 2009


beneath the sunset
we start making love slowly
our first intimacy

he fumbles
with my breast pocket button
my breath catches

I see the distant
shoreline over his shoulder
silhouetted figures

The Fool* leads
a single file beach parade
I look to my lover

*The Fool in the Tarot; Image: The Fool in The Sacred Art Tarot]
[dreamku series on a dream of 5/05/09, which dream precipitated memories of and resonances with the Felini movie, La Strada, and a very old dream/poem of mine also referencing that same movie.]

May 9, 2008

his last name Mean
doesn't mean it
happy couple

[dreamku on a dream of 5/05/09]

May 10, 2009


she and her large
golden colored dog take
an evening walk
in the vaguely familiar
food court and shopping mall

there are no seats at
any of the outdoor tables
she desperately longs
to change the worn out old shoes
on her tired and aching feet

at the farthest edge
of the now darkened mall
she lets her dog pee
some sprays down her length as
he rolls luxuriating

[three dream tanka on a dream of 5/02/09]

May 11, 2009

the sensuous play
of his voice through my body
his words dissolve

[dreamku on a dream of 2/28/09; when I post an old dreamku it’s because it has current resonance]

May 12, 2009

live radio show
what to say about this
nearly hairless mouse

[dreamku on a dream of 5/12/09]

May 13, 2009


he drains his power
using his old umbrella
critical illness

the chief physician
doesn't think healing can work
the patient's strong faith

he tells me to rest
then help with the healing
shadowy aide

[dreamku series on a dream of 3/23/08; posted because it resonates at present]

May 14, 2009

the huge roach skitters
but I cleave it easily
newspaper sword

[dreamku on a dream of 5/13/09; Image: Samurai, Dover Publications]

May 15, 2009

his borrowed wheelchair
speeds up across the bridge
he can't find the brakes

[dreamku on a dream of 5/12/09]

May 16, 2009


they think it's a man
who intends to murder her
monkey cage stake-out

ringer in a hoodie
we spread out to trap
the real killer

[two dreamku on a dream of 5/15/09; Don't ask me, I don't know! :-D I can only say that this is the second night in a row of dreams in which a woman was the object of murder. What I think now as I type this footnote is that The Death card in the Tarot's most common meaning is transformation, not physical death. Hm.... Fear of intense change? And a bit p.o.'d at whom I've been trying in my thinking (but not very successfully) to blame for precipitating it? That fits.]

May 17, 2009

afternoon nap
can a tanka fit along
the base of my skull

[dreamku on a dream of 5/15/09]

May 18, 2009

Clark Gable
is attracted to her moxie
will either last

[dreamku on a dream of 5/2/09]

May 19, 2009


I'm too wide for
the sandy path back down
short fall off

landing on packed ground
all sense of direction gone
what do I do now

the smiling voice listens
I feel guided as I turn to
climb back on the path

[dreamku series on a dream of 5/18/09]

May 20, 2009

the old blue bunny's
home from the hospital

[dreamku on a dream of 5/20/09]; I have absolutely no idea what this one's about, but it gave me a good chuckle on recall. As I type this, though, I'm flooded with associations (rather sad ones), so I think I'll go do some journalling.]

May 21, 2009

long beach walk
I’m not Latina but try
faking it for him

[dreamku on dream of 2/28/09; old dream/ku with current relevance]

May 22, 2009

he's insulted that I
spurn his avid caresses
sexy drunk stranger

[dreamku on a dream of 5/18/09]

May 23, 2009

young women keep
offering to buy her candy
should she be so grateful

[dreamku on a dream of 5/18/09]

May 24, 2009


he challenges her
to find proof he's not hers
big bag of photos

the bag's bottomless
she and the pets rush to him
as he re-enters

glasses on the table
wine breathes at the ready
hope fizzles

[dreamku series on a dream of 5/23/09; it's rare I see psi elements in a dream so immediately, usually I only spot them weeks and months, even years later; but this one has elements that showed up today (5/23), a matter of hours after being dreamed]

May 25, 2009


I hit the high note
right on at the end
huge chorus

director's cut
my breath runs out barely
half a beat early

[dreamku series on a dream of 5/24/09]

May 26, 2009

I take a chance and
walk a new lush green path
she suggests I move here

[dreamku on a dream of 5/23/09]

May 27, 2009

she helps bring each child
safely across to the van
flooded parking lot

[dreamku on a dream of 5/25/09]

May 28, 2009

they're joyful to learn
she's secretly true to them
three teen-age beach boys

[dreamku on a dream of 5/27/09]

May 29, 2009

singing a coda
"We've saved the best for last"
hurt or hope?

[dreamku on a dream of 6/5/08; posted now as it has current relevance]

May 30, 2009

the lawyer claims he
knows resources for the blind
we see through him

[dreamku on a dream of 5/28/09]

May 31, 2009

unearned guilt and
self-destructive tantrums
dreams of Britney Spears

[dreamku on a dream of 5/16/08, posted now as it has some current relevance]

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‘til next time, keep dreaming,

**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

DIGITAL DABBLINGS, photos taken by Roswila

I won't say a whole lot about these digital photos, other than to say all were taken within the last two months. I will add that I've finally read the manual accompanying the camera and am hopeful my photos will improve. I do find I have to do less cropping and editing once I load photos into Adobe, so I do seem to be learning as I go along. Eventually I may even take a digital photo course online. The Santa Barbara Community College Adult Education courses here are fabulous and free!

By the way, in most browsers you will probably be able to click on any photo below to get a larger version.

This first is my favorite so far. I tend to have one favorite in each batch, and this is from my most recent group, taken in early May in the rose garden on the grounds where I live, just around the corner from my room:

This next one was taken just across from the arbor in the above photo, it's one of several places around the grounds where birds are fed every day by one woman who's calling it appears to be:

And this one below was taken just to the left of the one above. It's an amazing bush:

I love the color roses this bush produces; taken in same garden as the arbor picture at the top of this post:

This tree is in Isla Vista, a shopping area about a 2 mile (round trip) walk from where I live. Every time I pass this tree I have to stop and touch it's trunk:

And here's the view standing with my back to that tree in the photo immediately above:

This next was taken in the courtyard of The Lobero Theatre in Santa Barbara, where I was enjoying "Jazz, Blues, and Langston Hughes":

Lastly, some photos of the woman behind the camera (not taken by me, of course) in a Fancy Hat Contest on Kentucky Derby Day. I was one of two who got a second place cash prize. That's a baby Pegasus on my cap; I kept saying that I was wearing the winner since no horse could beat one with wings:

The stick I'm holding in the group photo above is my bamboo hiking stick (really used as a cane due to my arthritic right knee) that is also a flute. One of my neighbors has challenged me to play it while I'm walking. LOL!

And this is where I'll leave you, hopefully laughing.

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‘til next time, keep dreaming,

**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****

Sunday, May 03, 2009


[Image that accompanied dream tanka series of April 9 below]

I’m delighted I have an excuse to use an elephant image to head up this month’s post of dreamku and dream tanka, as I need all the help I can get from dear Ganesh these days. I have a rich life to re-organize, both externally and internally. Sometimes it feels nigh on to impossible or at least undesirable to do all this work, and when that ebb tide turns, I feel excited and re-energized. More and more I try to go at least somewhat gracefully with the tide in either direction.

I’m not sure why I like this next sample dream tanka pair the most of this month’s writing, but it tickles me. Hm.... I’ve not been particularly happy with the writing craft aspect of the vast majority of my dreamku and dream tanka for a few months. So I think I may like this one because I'm fairly content with both the dream content and writing craft levels. Not to mention that the final image is rather a fun one:


the birds steal back
the bread slices we’ve taken
and plastered up
in the dream I draft a tanka
about this back and forth

we stick fuchsia bread
vertically on a door
it’s quickly announced
that the slices are sliding
as the door begins to thaw

And I found -- still find -- the source dream for this dreamku:

the harridan and
the saintly man of service
I give them the finger

very helpful whenever I notice I'm swinging to one extreme or the other in my judgments or expectations of myself or anyone else. I sort of lightly mentally flip the bird at my judgment or expectation. :-)


April 1, 2009

the boy’s diaper
leaks an endless torrent
the lovely bridesmaid’s veil
of eggshell colored lace
covers her entire body

this large wedding party
freezes in place
photo flash

[dream tanka & a dreamku on one dream]

April 2, 2009

for the show we all
wear glittery white belly
dancing outfits
I gyrate lightly along
as I await my solo

I want to show off
the hip-roll-thrust I’m good at
as I weave around
I hear even small breasts as
on our singer are sexy, too

the singer backs me
while I dance forward into
my solo turn
her Irish accent rises
sweetly through the doumbek’s beat

[three dream tanka on one dream; image: doumbek]

April 3, 2009

the tall black player
and I are to be lovers
this famous hoops star's honesty
and wit disarm
and even further charm me

[dream tanka]

April 4, 2009

the microwave beeps
I wake with the image
of me hugely pregnant


April 5, 2009

all the one-eyed boy
wants for Christmas: a patch
with a painted eye


April 6, 2009

she’s hard of hearing
and lost her place in the song
I help her leaf through
thirteen pages of lyrics
but the director cuts her

[dream tanka]

April 7, 2009


the birds steal back
the bread slices we’ve taken
and plastered up
in the dream I draft a tanka
about this back and forth

we stick fuchsia bread
vertically on a door
it’s quickly announced
that the slices are sliding
as the door begins to thaw

[two dream tanka on one dream]

April 8, 2009

ten strikes in a row
in the water bowling game
instant replay shows
the window behind one player
shattering as he lets go

[dream tanka]

April 9, 2009

[see elephant image at top of page]


the couple and I
have long been deeply involved
this time however
when they begin to argue
I spontaneously run

alone on the road
I pick up speed loping
through the tall green woods
amazed my red high-heeled feet
make this joyous flight so well

suddenly barefoot
with sore toes and a light heart
I stop for a rest
at the side of the road
and marvel at what I’ve done

across the way
sitting on the wooded bank
a baby elephant
I’m delighted he’s a fan
poised calmly to support me

four dream tanka on one dream; the title just popped into my head and when I googled it because it seemed familiar – though I thought it might be because of it’s similarity to the song “Elephant Walk” – I found out it’s also the title for a book about a boy’s life in Burma in early WWII including escape from a Japanese war camp, and adjusting to life in a culture with elephants. Of course, I was quite tickled both in the dream and on recalling it because of my love of the Hindu Deity, Ganesh. Baby elephants show up in my dreams occasionally. I have tended to view them as supporting some beginning steps I’m taking (“baby steps”), as Ganesh is almost always invoked to bless beginnings and new enterprises. But this is the first time this support was explicit within the dream itself. And my identification with the elephant is not lost on me. :-) In this respect, I see that as a metaphor for my, um, shall we say, generously proportioned body, which is indirectly referenced in the dream by my amazement that I could make this run. BTW, these comments are only highlights; there's much more to the dream's import to me.]

April 10, 2009


in the empty pool
late at night he teaches me
new water sports
I learn fast and play well
in the cold echoing dark

he puts a mask
on my face and plugs my nose
water is forced to
trickle down slowly into
the back of my tense throat

this preparation
for deep diving is endless
anxious agitation
I’ve gone under before
years ago but not this way

can I breathe
and balance the air tank
fear bubbles up

[three dream tanka and a dreamku on one dream; Image: Daily Mandala of 3/15/09, used by permission]

April 11, 2009

I dream crying out
something's wrong! something's wrong!
I wake by his side


April 12, 2009

running happily
across visitors' backs
odd little dog

their never used car
a homeless young man sneaks in
and camps out

the strange little dog
opens the car door
a squatter's welcome

[dreamku series on one dream]

April 13, 2009


again! those pesky
stretch strings, this time on my hand
pulling and pulling
only lengthens not detaches them
but I keep pulling anyway

the dark green strands get
longer and longer as I yank
and wind them around
the fingers of my right hand
hoping they’ll stretch to breaking

frustration rises
ah! the first time ever in
this sort of pickle
I slip my fingers under
the strings’ roots and pry them right off

new approach joy in the morning

a root meaning of the word radical is root :-) And it was joyous to wake recalling this dream as that last tanka is not only from the dream, but contains waking memory: those stretchy things are a recurring dream image and this is the first time I tried a different and successful way to pry them off. I guess this might be considered a slightly lucid dream moment as within the dream I recalled waking memories. LOL! Waking memories of dreams in a dream. This does get convoluted, doesn't it?

[three dream tanka & a monoku on one dream]

April 14, 2009

the handsome Cupid
says “You’re a dangerous woman”
his eyes love limpid
I rush after him to learn
what he means and return the love

[dream tanka]


she and I both find
the new man in town handsome
his motorcycle
especially attracts me
and his elfin boyish smile

of the two of us
I’m surprised to find it’s me
he wants to be with
as he helps me to my feet
in order to embrace me

his fingers play with
my long curly dark hair
...ooops I forgot I’m in
another woman’s body
so is it me he desires

my appearance morphs
in my inner vision
and I see I look
exactly as I am:
tall large white-haired plain

although I can’t stop
the theft of videos from
inside his front door
no matter how I yell out,
happiness still stays with me

wanted for who I am safe harbor

[five dream tanka and a monoku on one dream]

April 16, 2009

the bedroom now has
two double beds filling it
a fan beneath one
morning sunlight shining
on the freshly washed white sheets

[dream tanka]

April 17, 2009

he struts around
saying all the signs are up
I can't read them

dreamku, from April one year ago: I just went through my current dreamku notebook and found lots I'd never posted. So once in a while I'll be posting old ones here, some after what I now see as necessary minor tweaking. However, I will choose those that resonate for me at present. This one eerily echos an interchange in a (waking :-D) conversation I had this morning with someone I had not even met at the time of the dream/ku.]

April 18, 2009

face off
we take each others' measure
the weather clears

[dreamku, from March one year ago, posted because it echos recent experience]

April 19, 2009

dying woman
she prepares to briefly
be a teenager

[dreamku, 4/17/09]

April 20, 2009


her large breasts bobble
in the big spaceship cabin
zero-g love making
* * * *

they crawl into
a tiny spaceship cabin
restrained love making

[two dreamku on one dream, 4/19/09]

April 21, 2009

the harridan and
the saintly man of service
I give them the finger

[dreamku on dream of 4/20/09]

April 22, 2009

the coral silk blouse
in the back of my closet
threadbare or slashed

[dreamku on dream of 3/31/09]

April 23, 2009

his new baritone voice
warms me as I’ve wanted
only in a dream

[dreamku on dream of 4/22/09]

April 24, 2009


she keeps pushing me
to incriminate myself
the arrogant young blonde
and shadowy accomplice
persist til my temper blows

I hear a whirring
by the wooden front door
they’re tape recording
my meltdown which prompts me
to escalate it further

hauled before a judge
who seems fair and quite placid
I deny the crime
and offer no defense for
my noisy temper tantrum

the judge clearly sees
my honesty but knows there’s more
to my story
he calls me into chambers
for a private debriefing

maybe this will be
a safe place to tell it all
intuitive judging

[four dream tanka & one dreamku on a dream of 4/5/09]

April 25, 2009


she’s taken four new
roommates since I moved out
I stop my move back
suddenly knowing she’d always
planned to replace me

I put on a black
and silver punk outfit
finally at home

[dream tanka & dreamku on a dream of 4/24/09]

April 26, 2009


in the clear beer glass
the liquified garlic
falling and rising
less high on each golden surge
a slowing breath or ebb tide

when fully dried out
will it have any spice left
we’ll see, she says

[dream tanka & dreamku on a dream of 4/25/09]

April 27, 2009

each repetition
still unintelligible
do I want to know

[dreamku on dream of 4/26/09]

April 28, 2009


one knee stuck in mud
she struggles to stand again
where are her friends

on her feet at last
the restaurant covered in
bright green ivy vines

[two dreamku on a dream of 4/17/09]

April 29, 2009

they are puzzled by
her ire at being ignored
thick strawberry drink

[dreamku on a dream of 4/25/09]

April 30, 2009

standing before a gate
overgrown with dense green vines
no going back

old dreamku and dream of 3/14/08; as I've mentioned previously, when I post a really old dreamku I've chosen it because in some way it resonates for me at present]

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‘til next time, keep dreaming,

**** [aka: Patricia Kelly] **** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”)****My other blogs: ROSWILA’S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL and ROSWILA’S TAIGA TAROT, and Yahoo DREAMJIN: Group for Dreamku – Haiku-Like Dream Poems ****