SCRIBBLES (photo) & AGAINST THE WALL (non-dream free verse poem) by Roswila

AGAINST THE WALL

why this need not only to dig it all up, but
to express it? decades of pain exhumed
and for what? the perpetrators won’t ever
hear of it and even if they did would not
recognize her, much less themselves in the
agonizing memories that line her inside
life like dried blood and artificial flowers;

and yet, she persists in remembering, turning
over rock after rock to find the fractured
aspects of her life, fragments she put down
herself, mostly mercy killings but many
a matter of self-defense, and buried;

some expressed, some not, but
all seen for how they were broken:
by betrayals and rejections,
lies and promises never even
intended to be kept,
humiliations and outright assaults,
each lobbed at her in its own time
like a hail of stones, as she stood,
once again backed up alone against
the impossible wall of life;

her own writing snaking across the wall,
writhing beneath her shoulder blades
like living graffiti


[non-dream, free verse poem written 2-15-20. Yeah, big time self-pity here. But, it too, needs expression. At least for me, or all it does is fester and make things worse. And, to a certain degree, it’s not self-pity in that I do think I’ve had a rougher row to hoe than many folk. I could go on explaining that but won’t. Suffice it to say that the introverted intuitive artistic type suffers a lot at the hands of this society. Even as it yearns to share what it has discovered and/or created. Not to leave out, of course, the prejudices and sexual abuses I suffered as a woman and as a girl-child, and especially as a large-bodied woman. Then there’s the admittedly strangely innocent way I have of understanding many things that people miscomprehend and often take unreasonable offense at, and so on. There’s more, but what I’ve said so far is more than enough for comments to a rather meh poem. Photo “Scribbles” (Archival Old Pix 1, 10007ed[2]) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant or contrasting aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
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