CLAMORING FOR RELEASE (photomorph) & ALL THAT SUCKS (free verse dream poem) by Roswila

ALL THAT SUCKS

the email list of good-paying, temporary office
jobs I've been accepted for is lengthy, which is
quite a surprise given how hard it was in my
later working years to find any sort of work;
and all those chippies back then, fresh out of
college or business school who couldn't string
an English sentence together with waxed dental
floss, they would get hired! ah well, back to my
near shock that I have all these job offers now,
in my advancing senior hood: I push my jumping
emotions down and get on with choosing between
the wide array of jobs; the bottom of the possible
employment list seems the most sensible place
to start given that's where my cursor is resting:
always best to begin right where one is, ey?
I open the last email in the string, it's massive,
its subject declaring in a large bolded font:
High Level Management Position In A Well-
Known, Big City Business; yikes! my stomach
sinks, did they even read my resume or listen
to a word I said in my interviews with them?!?
and even if, by some huge stretch of a miracle,
my accrued life experience does qualify me
for such work, I can't imagine taking on one
like it, even back all those years ago when
I was young, hale, and hearty; the massive
email scrolls open before me like an ancient
world map, promising treasure if I can only
decipher the fading symbols before the dream
crumbles like old parchment; and I'm further
shocked; this isn't even a job offer: it's the text
of a lengthy loan, one taken out by a series of
divers borrowers, each for a different investment
and each with my name appended at the very
end as one of the primary borrowers! Say
what! and who the hell cares if all the proposals
sound good, maybe even like sure-shots, I knew
nothing of any of this until opening this huge
email ... has my identity been stolen? if so, more
the fools they, for who'd want to try to open any
sort of credit based on my history; yet, it seems
they've done just this and, hell fire and damnation,
succeeded! life keeps handing me pile after pile of
debt: more and more often, living seems like nothing
more than slogging through a series of quicksand pits,
one right after another -- I just about get myself free
of all that sucks and another pit opens up


[free verse poem on a dream of 4-28-18. The references in this dream/poem to my past job experience, actually happened in my working years. And, yes, overall, this is a rather self-pitying piece. However, the reality is, self-pity is one of those recurring quicksand pits. BTW, that brief mention of it being a dream (in that parchment map image) indicates it was a very mildly lucid dream. Sigh. Not only an unpleasant dream, but one I was (to a subtle degree) aware of dreaming as I dreamed it. Of course, were I so inclined (and I'm not, at least not today), I might choose to interpret that section as an interjection of a wee bit of positivity. (Photomorph "Clamoring for Release" (5-13-18 008v2) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,





[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
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