THE BEGINNING (photo) & REPARATIONS (dream based prose poem) by Roswila

REPARATIONS

why the blazes didn't he give me a heads up,
even a few hours would have been helpful

but, noooo-oh, he just brings a repair guy
right in to do the job I didn't even know
needed doing, or had long ago forgotten about

I get right up in his face with my anger,
yelling at him as I never did when he was alive

and he looking all the while as only he could
when he was young and handsome,
with those placid blue-gray eyes

as if no one could ever challenge him on anything,
or at least hold out long enough to get it through to him

get it through that he'd been thoughtless,
inconsiderate,
selfish,
and most of all more concerned with how things look,
than with what they actually are

yet somehow this confrontation doesn't feel at all
like I might have imagined it would
had I even cared to anticipate its fall out

for my father stands there taking it all in gracefully
and by the time my fulminating's over,
so, too, are the repairs


[dream based prose poem (or maybe dream narrative?) on a dream of 5-4-15, written during my blog break. This was my actual father (LOL, not a "visitation," just what he looked like when he was a young man). What I accuse him of in this dream/poem could apply to me at times, as well. But I think the deeper point to the dream is some anger at him I wasn't aware I was still harboring. And that expressing it in this dream was healing. Hm, that raises the thought that some of that anger has also been at myself for not being perfect, for having some of the short comings that I saw in him. Photo "The Beginning" (9-4-09 6564) by Roswila]

PLEASE NOTE: in most browsers you can click on the above image for a larger version. Also, the photo accompanying a post is not necessarily meant to illustrate it, but to reflect some small, even slant aspect of the verse, similar to Japanese haiga (illustrated haiku).

There are many other sorts of posts on this blog. I indicate which are about or influenced by dreams. Some non dream focused posts are book reviews, "regular" poems (some by other writers, as the above is), scifaiku, writing exercises, Tarot haiku, photos, haiga, and so on. However, most of those are in much older posts. There's a listing by month going back to early 2006, at the end of the sidebar.

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until next time, keep dreaming,

[a/k/a Patricia Kelly]
**** If you wish to copy or use any of my writing or poems, please email me for permission (under “View my complete profile”). Roswila's connections & other blogs: Charter Member of the United Haiku and Tanka Society (UHTS); ROSWILA'S TAROT GALLERY & JOURNAL; ROSWILA'S TAIGA TAROT; and TRYING TO HOLD A BOX OF LIGHT.